recovery
It has been 6 days since my failed attempt,
The first 2 days were hell for me,
My stomach couldn't keep down the food I gave it,
I kept puking or either having an upset stomach,
I was very hypersensitive,
I was overwhelmed easily,
I was...healing.
Within those two days,
I decided that it was best that I started to go back to therapy,
Scheduling an appointment date 3 days after my failed attempt.
Around day 3 and 4,
I slowly started to eat once more,
Without being forced,
But I began to rely on caffeine because I wasn't full of energy,
I was still exhausted.
I was still very tired.
I told a selective few about my attempt,
They were upset,
They were upset with themselves that they didn't notice or weren't there for me,
They were...accepting of my state and helped me in the best ways they could.
They gave me hope.
Day 5 and 6,
I still feel nauseous here and there,
I still taste the Tylenol in the back of my throat,
I've strayed away from pills besides my Lexapro,
I am...trying my hardest to recover,
Even if it is at a slow pace,
Even if it takes a while,
Because in those events,
I have forgotten how to be me.
I want to find her again.
a.b.
YOU ARE READING
Tarnished Beauty
PoetryYou and I, we have different stories and that's what makes us all individually unique. This is just a continuation of mine- where I try and fix myself, relapsing along the way. I hope this gives you hope or whatever you need to survive.
