As the sun rises, the wind
will carry me away.
Quick as the licking flames of fire,
everything that makes me
drag this blade as the blood runs,
drip-drip-dripping to this walnut floor.
Tears drip-drip-drip to my shirt like rain
screaming, exploding onto that
Sylvan beach shore.
My mother always told me that I could be strong.
So, I stand, with shaking hands,
but, Mama, it's been so long
since I have smiled and meant it.
I had heaps of love,
but she spent it.
Those too-dry eyes broke me
as she rode away, engine smoking,
ready to blow up this town
we both sear to leave
as we lie choking on ganja
with the promise of eloping.
Maybe this is what I needed,
just not what I wanted.
Maybe I wanted a closed casket
on a fall day with the sun
just peeking through the clouds
as lovers run back together,
vines entangled forever,
so that their hearts don't break like mine.
He said, 'Leave my body by the liquor store',
and I thought maybe I could
drown out my sorrows,
but I just have empty bottles
and unshed tears and torn out pages
on the floor of this room in this town
I hate so much.
Pretentious kings try to use me
as I stand,
cheeks flushed in the winter snow.
I try to spill my blood,
but then a whispering boy tiptoes back
and he tells me something good
with those hands that once held me.
He tells me
he loves me.
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Rays in the Dark
Short StoryA collection of stories and poems depicting people's lives as they struggle with love, mental illnesses, and the everyday battles that life throws their way.