Rays in the Dark

Paint the path to my window.

I would crawl broken and bleeding

up the tallest mountain for you.

But you can't even give me one smile.

Your mama thinks you're in my bed

but I haven't heard from you

in three days.

How are you so good but so bad

all at once?

Lonely mornings lead to missed calls

and texts you read but don't respond to.

Did you make it out

of this town we despise?

Away from nay-sayers and Negative Nancys

trying to morph us

into the picture-perfect girl and boy

from the right side of town?

You used to sing me to sleep,

my favorite songs trickling

from those two soft lips like honey.

I still replay those moments

when I'm alone.

My cheeks burn

because I was the one

naïve enough to let you come that close to me.

I was the one who broke my own heart

this time.

But you planned that, didn't you?

You let all the girls

you could possibly come across

think they have a chance.

You string each one along

just long enough to make your promises feel strong

just to take them out with the trash,

not even looking back

to make sure

she didn't erupt with flames

on your way in.

There was so much I was waiting for

before you ran.

So much I wanted to do

with you by my side.

Now all I have are these blank pages

and empty plans.

I know how long we've been apart

but I still remember

exactly how you taste.

Lips pressed to mine,

tongue soaked with your favorite beer

at the height of sunrise.

I still leave my window opened

just in case you change your mind.