ENCHANTRESS: The Tale Of The Fallen Kingdom

CELESTIAL 28

Gale

      I THOUGHT KADE'S condition will not last that long but it's been three days and I'm still here sitting outside his room everyday. I'm not getting tired but I'm hurt, my heart always feels like it's always been squeezed tightly.

But I know it wasn't just my pain it was his too, the pain was too much sometimes that I'm having a hard time breathing. I wanted to be with him so badly but every time I tried he keeps on pushing me away and that would just triple the pain.

I stayed not because I pity him or I needed him I stayed because I love him too much that I cannot see myself without him; thinking of it makes me smirked painfully because I am doing just fine until I met him but now just thinking that I would be separated from him kills me, I love him too much that even if he pushes me away a million times I wouldn't leave him I would still understand and take care of him even without him knowing it.

Queen Natasha and King Azariah talked to me yesterday politely and they want me to understand and give Kade some time because  Kade has been through a lot and his trauma came back when he sees me unconscious because of him they said that this happens before already but this time it was more severe because Kade is hurting himself emotionally by not seeing me.

Nanatili lang ako sa labas nang pinto ni Kade mula umaga hanggang gabi umaalis lang ako kung ipaghahanda ko na siya nang pagkain o di kaya ay magpapahinga na ako, sinasamahan din ako nang Fates minsan.

Nandito ako ngayon nakaupo sa Labas nang pinto ni Kade, alam kong alam niya sa tuwing nandidito ako pero kahit ni minsan hindi niya ako tiningnan o sinilip man lang, hindi ako galit sa kanya pero masama ang loob ko dahil hindi ko akalain na kaya niya akong tiisin nang ganito, I always try my best not to cry everyday because it won't do me any good ayokong kaawaan nila ako my self pity was enough for me already, inaamin ko na nakakababa nang pagkababae ang ginagawa ko pero Mahal ko siya na halos hindi ko na iniisip ang sarili ko basta lang malapit ako sa kanya kahit masakit na.

Kapag nakahiga ako hindi ko mapigilang isipin lahat nang pantataboy ni Kade sakin minsan iniisip ko maybe Kade just loved what we have, he loved the bond that we have since it was irresistible and now that he saw what he can do, he felt what it was like to be in pain and he wants to get rid of that feeling he wants to get rid of the bond by pushing me away, this thoughts keeps on replaying in my mind and I always cry myself to sleep. I know this was all in my head but I can't help to think that what if I'm right? I honestly don't know what to do or to feel if this was all true, I'm sure I'll breakdown I can't take it.

Thinking all of this while sitting outside Kade's Room makes me sob silently but I immediately wipe my tears away when I saw the Queen walk towards me.

She smiled at me sadly. "You're here again darling." Malumanay niyang Sabi habang tinutulungan akong tumayo.

"I'm fine Mom, I wanna be closed to him." I smiled softly.

Her face soften. "Come with me, I want to show you something." Nilahad niya ang kamay niya sakin.

Dahan dahan ko yung tinanggap, I am curious of where she would take me.

She was just holding my hand as we walked, her hands is soft and warm just like a mother's hands.

I didn't ask and she didn't tell me where she would take me until we reach a golden double wooden door.

"Once were inside you'll know our family's painful past and Kade's worst nightmare." Mahina niyang sabi habang nakatingin lang sa pinto, nakita ko ang sakit at lungkot sa mga mata niya na para bang may masakit siyang ala-ala.

Pinatong ko ang kamay ko sa kamay niyang nakahawak sakin. "You don't have to do this Mom, let's just go back." I was really curious especially when she mentioned Kade's worst nightmare but I hate seeing her in pain and I don't want to put her in a hard position just so I could fed my curiosity.