The Stranger in my room

Chapter 17

Jenn

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His life!!!

His words left me dumbfounded.
I was confused about what to reply to.
Am I that much important to him?

Why?

I kept quiet after that.
It was like my words got lost somewhere.

We ate the rest of the food in silence.

He took the plates to the kitchen afterwards and washed them.

It's been three days that he is cooking and cleaning the utensils, because of which I am feeling so relaxed.
He is becoming a part of my life slowly.
He is making me used to his presence, his touch, his care, his food, his kisses. Now when I return from the cafe I expect to see him.
He is becoming my habit.

But when you get something unexpected then there comes the fear of losing it. That insecurity slowly eats the core of our happiness.
This fear resides always in corner of our hearts and haunts us when either we are enjoying ourselves to the fullest or when we feel so vulnerable.
This time it is poking me when I am enjoying to my fullest.
It is piercing me with the thought that what if he would not come tomorrow?
What if he will get someone else more beautiful??
What if I may not remain important in his life?
What if he will get bored of me?

And this insecurity is like tumor cells. It gets bigger day by day and slowly causes harm to ourselves. It makes us weak day by day.
This insecurity lead us to self doubt, it makes us feel so vulnerable at times.

And in my case, this insecurity is valid because I don't even know his real name.
Even though I doubt that he is Alex but I don't have any proof.
He can be someone else also.

He shrugged off my thoughts when he returned to the room with two cups of ice cream.

Oh, yaa...
He brought it yesterday...

I smiled looking at him, I tried to decode the reason behind his caring behaviour towards me but it went in vain.
It never felt that he is showing off or doing all this on purpose, this all seems so genuine. Like he truly wants to take care of me.
But again I got stuck with the same question...... Why??

He handed me a cup and sat beside me and said, " Have it and then complete your assignment. I don't want you to get distracted from your studies because of me."

I nodded.

What did I do to get such a person in my life??

We again ate it while our back at each other, facing opposite sides.

He asked, "What assignment are you doing?"

I replied, "It is of chemistry ".

"Okay ", he mouthed.

After eating he said, "I am right here, complete your assignment. If you need any help then ask me. Okay."

I nodded.

He laid behind me on the bed while I was sitting.
He slid his one hand around my waist and held me to him as if I would fly away from here.

I felt a slight tickling in my stomach by his touch, but I like it.
I felt his warm breath on the side of my waist which made butterflies go crazy in my stomach.
No one had ever cuddled with me like this.
This is so soothing...

I then resumed my mind to the assignment.
It took me 1 hour to complete it but Ray had slept till then.

I had an opportunity to see his face. I can clear my doubt right now.
But he will not like it ...
He trusts me, I can't break his trust.
But it is not like is am breaking is trust, I just want to know the truth...