Tenth Chapter : Reminisce Part Five
[ six years ago ]
-This part happened around the 104th Training Corps scene.
"Y/n!" I looked at the direction of the voice only to find Eren, grinning widely.
To be honest, I'm beyond shocked right now. Like what the hell? The guy I've always admired was standing in front of me, smiling.
I smiled back and spoke. "Why?" I asked him.
Conceal your freaking excitement, you bitch.
Eren walked his way towards me. As he was getting nearer and nearer with each steps he takes, I was also being slowly eaten by nervousness.
Why the fuck am I even nervous?
"Join us, Reiner and Bertholdt will be eating with us from now on, too." He said with a boosted energy. Gosh, why is this man so handsome?
And why the hell do I want to put my arms around his neck? Flirty bitch.
"Hey, Y/N." He called for my name again which I responded with a nod and a smile.
A huge smile broke on his face too.
"Come with me now, then." I was beyond shocked when he grabbed my hand and pulled me to I don't freaking know where.
But the thing was, Eren Jager was holding my freaking hand for crying the fuck out loud.
I think I've let out all the curses I mastered but it was no use.
My heart was beating loudly as if it wanted to be free from my ribcage. When we arrived at the table where Reiner and others were, I felt a glare at my direction.
It was Mikasa.
She was looking down at Eren's hand on mine.Then, she quickly stood up to go to Eren.
"Ereh!"
She called for him as she grabbed his arm and made him sit beside her.
Another . . . bitch.
Joking. Mikasa and I are cool, I don't wanna destroy our friendship just because of a simple admiration.
I'm sure this feeling will be gone after a few weeks.
"Y/n! Good to see you here!" Marco greeted as he shouldered me.
My sight dropped at Eren and I was shocked when I saw him staring at me too. His gaze were intent and serious. Was he up for a staring contest?
It didn't take long when I broke the contact and decided to talk with Reiner and the others instead. Why? Oh, because Mikasa clinged into Eren's arms again.
Gosh, I never thought of Mikasa as a rival or whatsoever.
Our group dinner ended with me, having no appetite to eat at all but just had to force myself because of Berthodlt's nag. How I wish Annie's here too. Sadly, she really doesn't want to join us.
***
I couldn't sleep, that's why I decided to walk for a while in the field. I'm not aware of the time but I think it's midnight.
I still remember the nights when I was only fed with water and nothing more to enhance my adaptation skill if ever I'll be left outside the walls.
The nights when my Mom would sing me to sleep.
The happy nights when Dad would kiss my forhead and tell me about the different tactics on how to win a fight against strong people.
All those nights where I still had someone to lean on.
And then, I recalled that night when I mourned 'til morning came . . . those excruciating nights when my Dad and Mom left me alone in this unfair and cruel worls full of deepshits.
They died without warning, they died, and I wasn't even able to talk to them, or kiss them goodbye before they did.
All those nights that I hate the most.
The air was calm as it slaps itself in my face when I heard someone cleared his throat.
"Can't sleep?" I heard the voice asked.
But I knew who that was already. It was him, Eren Jaeger.
Why is he here? To be honest, he was the reason why I couldn't sleep at all and then he'll show up in flesh in the middle of the fucking night? How great.
I just nodded. I could not afford to throw him a glance, because I didn't want him, or anyone for this matter, to see me in my vulnerable state. Never.
"Ereh!" So he wasn't alone, huh?
Mikasa's always behind this man. I just couldn't help but to wonder anymore, is she Eren's tail? And of course she immediately grabbed Eren's arm.
"Why are you out this early? You might catch a cold." She worriedly said as she placed her hand on Eren's forhead.
"What? M–Mikasa, stop that!"
There was some sudden emotion in my heart . . . as if it just broke, and I didn't even knoe why.
Instead of glaring at Mikasa for ruining the moment, I just cleared my throat which made the both of them looked at me. Mikasa wasn't glaring at me or whatever unlike earlier at our dinner. She still had this kind aura with her that I've always adored.
"I guess I have to go now, I'm a bit . . . sleepy," I told them as I faked a yawn.
That's how I confirmed that uncertain feeling I felt earlier. I chuckled, mocking myself.
I was jealous, when I had no rights to be.
END OF CHAPTER TEN.
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