Eighteenth Chapter : Shattered
After that talk, we never saw each other again for the whole night. It was better than bumping to each other again and then I'd be standing there dazed, not knowing what to do.
Because trust me, it hurts so much.
I just can't really help but to ask him how the hell did it turn out like this? It was so, so far from whaf I have expected or even thought. Who would've known that something like that would happen? What exactly happened?
That night, I slept full of hatred, sadness, and longing.
Everything was just so hard to absorb that I saw myself crying before sleep took over me. I miss him so damn much.
Then, .orning came and I already planned out what I should do today. I'll try my very best to win Eren's heart and that's final. Well, everybody's doubting his every actions as of the moment because of how he acted last night but I knew that they still treat him as a dear friend, co-soldier, senior, and junior.
"Morning, Sasha!"
My friend, Sasha, was up so early and it wasn't a shock anymore that she went straight towards the kitchen after waking up. Well, that's a habit of hers.
Her eyes went extremely wide as she exclaimed, "W-What're ya doin' here?!"
Sasga immediately hid the potato behind her back as her eyes were still wide, wondering if I saw her and I did. My eyes caught her swift, desperate movement which didn't restrain me from laughing.
This was definitely not a first time catching her steal foods from the kitchen and her denying everything about it. It was a cute habbit she has that I always warn her of. Even though I already knew what she was hiding, I thought of teasing her so I attempted to look for what she was hiding yet she still did her best to hide it.
"What're ya lookin' at?! I-I'm not h-hiding anything!"
I laughed at that. This woman is the cutest person to ever exist in this damned world I have always hated. She was everyone's sunshine.
When I finally recovered from laughing, I shook my head, took a tray full of foods and then decided to carry out my plan already, resulting me to go to my destination. I heaved a deep sigh and tried my very best to collect confidence.
After that, I knocked thrice on the door. I think I waited for approximately ten minutes until the door finally opened, revealing the man that once brought me solace but it was now nothing but confusion.
I swallowes as soon as I my eyes met his, his hair was tied in a man bun and his eyes . . . his eyes were dull and lifeless.
"What the fuck do you need?"
You. I wanted to yell that at the top of my lungs but I restrained myself from doing so, otherwise, I might screw things up again.
Eren's thick eyebrows raised in suspicion as he kept on looking at me in utter disgust. Nevertheless, I beamed a bright smile, hoping it would somehow knock him back to his senses. To the old Eren who would never try to do this to me.
"Good morning, love!" In the brightest way, I greeted him.
Then slowly, his eyebrows creased due to deep confusion. His hands started moving towards the tray and stupid me, thinking that he was finally going to treat me the way he did before.
He got the food tray from my grasp which made ne smile but the next thing he did almost brought tears to my eyes.
He...threw it away.
All those foods...he just threw it away.
I was supposed to cry, right? But no! Eren is just confused as of the moment, his old self will surely comeback as time goes by, right? That should be it.
"I already made myself clear yesterday, haven't I?" He dangerously said which sent shiverd down my spine.
"You are nothing to me, Y/N. You mean nothing to me, so get the fuck out of my fucking sight." Eren said as if he was really disgusted of my presence. Not knowing what to do, I just nodded and took a step back.
He may be like this but I know...I know that our relationship before was anything but fake. It was far from lie and pretention, and I am going to prove that. I closed my eyes tightly.
I will bring him back.
The Eren who would mutter sweet words when I am down, who would comfort me when I cry, who would support me whenever I feel tired, who would kiss me whenever I feel like I lack affection.
I don't care if I might end up hurt, or worse, shattered. But I promise myself, I will make him love me again. This time, I will never let him go for sure.
That is how much I love him.
END OF CHAPTER 18.
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