Together, But Not Forever | Eren

26. Chapter Twenty Six

Eren

I was beyond nervous when I saw her, the woman I have always loved, talking to Historia who was now crying.

Y/N looked so confused and I immediately know where this fucking thing would lead.

Fear crept into my system as I watched her eyes, now filled with tears as she looked at Historia with rage, disgust and sadness in her two beautiful orbs. I still wasn't ready for this day to come.

I had enough of seeing her broke the other night and this morning.

When she raised her hand to slap Historia for the second time, I got nervous and afraid.

The baby in Historia's womb...

So, I hurriedly walked towards them and stopped her hand that was about to slap Historia.

"Don't you dare hurt her." I said, trying my best to sound emotionless. As much as I don't want to see Y/N's crying and hurt face, I didn't want any harm done on the baby neither. Because after all, the baby was still my own flesh and blood.

My heart broke, seeing her pale face.

She looked like she was begging me to take what I said back.

But I couldn't...because I shouldn't.

"Hurt her?! You don't want her to be hurt so you fucking hurt me instead, huh?!" She yelled.

I don't wanna hurt you too baby, God knows that more than anyone.

"You could've just told me..." My heart shattered at the tone of her voice. She's really hurt. She's so broke. And yet here I am, adding salt to her wounds. What a motherfucker you are, Eren.

"You could've just fucking told me that you..." She  pointed at me. "...and this fucking woman...!" Y/N pointed at Historia. "Are making a fucking family already! Gosh, I can't believe I am a fucking mistress all these time!" She said as if those words were venom.

If I can only cry right now.

"You were so desperate. I just had a pity on you." I forced myself to tell her that.

Her face paled even more, she was biting her lip, probably stopping herself from crying loudly.

No, it's not true, baby. It's not.

But I had to stop myself from giving her hope. So, I maintained a dull face.

I wanted to kneel down in front of her and desperately ask for forgiveness when I saw disgust written all over her face.

Please don't look at me like that, Y/N.

"I was desperate, yes, Eren. I was desperate because you left me with a fucking promise, you came back with a fucking insult and you made me hope! I was desperate because I love you, I was desperate be of you." She pointed at me.

I just scoffed rolled my eyes.

Because I had to. I'm sorry, baby. I'm so sorry.

She painfully sighed.

"Fine. I'll stop. I'll stop being a desperate slut. I'll stop begging for your intention. I'll stop..." I wanted to stop her from telling those.

I wanted to kiss her to make her shut up.

But again, I shouldn't.

"...I'll stop loving you." She looked straight into my eyes after saying that.

Please don't stop. I'll die. I'll die if you stop loving me, Y/N. So please don't. Please don't.

For a moment, I couldn't control my emotions anymore. I tried forced myself not to take a step closer to her. I clenched my jaw to stop myself from telling her than I love her.

Then, she faced Historia. She forced a smile as she looked at Historia.

"Take care of him, Historia. Eren can't sleep peacefully without a kiss in his forehead, he loves eating heavy breakfast, he doesn't get sick all the time b-but when he does...he needs to be taken care of." She was painfully crying.

And it was because of me and my bullshits again.

I gulped the lump on my throat.

But...I wanted to tell her that she was the only one who could satisfy me. That she was the only one I will love. That she was the only one who could take care of me just like how I want her to.

However, I couldn't give her hope. I've hurt her too much.

"Don't act like she doesn't know." With a forceful snirk on my face, I said those.

Hertears doubled as she avoided my gaze.

"You take care of Historia too. She's...she's sensitive, she's picky when it comes to food, she gets easily offended so please don't say—" I cut me off.

Stop hurting yourself, baby. Please.

"Don't act like I don't know. I have been taking care of her for months. Now, give us a favor and leave our fucking lives peacefully." That was the only thing I could think of to shut her up, so I told her that.

"Y-Yes...Yes, I will. I'm sorry...I'm sorry for almost ruining your f-family...I'm sorry for loving you, Eren." She said.

You're not regretting that you loved me, right? Don't regret it, baby. Because I love you so much, Y/N.

I closed my eyes tightly and clenched my jaw again. I really have to stop myself.

Even though it's hard, I slowly started walking towards the crying Historia. I gently caressed Historia's tummy, telling her that everything's going to be fine.

"I hate you, Eren." Those were the last words that I heard from Y/N.

And just like that, my heart shattered.

I was desperately stopping myself to run after her and ask for forgiveness. I was tapping my feet harshly just to not take a single step towards her retreating back.

Then, Historia gripped my shirt.

"Please don't leave me, Eren. Please don't forsake me and your son...you're all we have left." Historia begged.

My tears fell from my eyes, knowing that I couldn't do anything but nod. I knew I have to let Y/N go and this was the first step.

To stop myself from seeing her. To convince myself that I hate her. Even though it was totally the opposite.

"I love you, Y/N." I whispered in the air, letting my tears fall again.

[ end of chapter 26 ]