Together, But Not Forever | Eren

12. Chapter Twelve

Twelveth Chapter : Pleasure

"I am so sorry, love." Eren apologized for a hundredth time now as he sighed heavily. I was currently crying my heart out. It was the only thing that I have been doing for two days straight.

"Y/N, I'm sorry too . . . I . . . I didn't meant to e-eat Berhtoldt. I . . . really didn't."

Armin's shaky hands tried to caress my shoulder but he was unsuccessful, he ended up breaking down. It was a tough one for him too. I know how horrible he feels right now. Images of Berthodlt being eaten by Armin flashed in my mind again.

I tried to be strong, I swear tried. But everytime I let my guard down, the world would steal something from me. I don't even know what I did wrong.

Because to be honest, all I ever did was to save people's ass from getting eaten by Titans . . . all my life, that's what I have been doing, I trained myself to die for other's sake, so why does the world like playing with my feelings?

Eren looked at Armin then to others and said, "You guys can leave now, I'll handle her."

All of them nodded after a deep sigh. They looked at me with a soft smile and left.

Eren then walked towards where I was and pulled me my wrist. It made me stare at his eyes, it held so many emotions but empathy reigned over them. His other hand caressed my cheek with a sad smile as he leaned his forehead against mine.

"What I'd do to take away your sorrow, my love."

I sobbed harder and buried my face against his chest. He sounded so sweet and desperate. God, I really love him.

The both of us were inside his room—our room, as he calls it. He let me cry for three straight hours, I didn't even know I could shwd tears that long. Maybe because it really, really hurts.

"Are you fine now?" He softly asked, not wanting to make me feel even worse.

I sniffed and remained my face against his chest. After a while, I heard Eren's deep sigh."Love, the world won't wait for you until you stop crying you know? As you have always told me, the world istelf is unfair."

"It will make it's move. The enemy will make their move and you will be forced to fight when that day comes. But you know what's worst? It's that you're not ready for it. Why? 'Cause you spent all your free time mourning for the people that  had no plans on returning in this fucked up world." He added.

"Bertholdt, everyone . . . they're probably happy now, my love. They're in a better place now, far from chaos."

His words woke me up. I started to wipe my face and meet Eren's gaze. He was still wearing his genuine smile.

"What should I do then, Eren? Tell me."

I was taken aback when his smile turned to a playful smirk. He took another step to almost close the distance between us and leaned in to whisper something on my ear.

"How about we make love?"

Damn that tone. I closed my eyes and heaved a very heavy sigh. All the pain I've been feeling has finally subsided, but I know it's still in there, somewhere.

"Fuck you," I told him while sending deadly glares at his direction. Eren's smirk got even wider as his hand landed on my waist. He pulled me to him to close the distance between us.

He nodded. "Sure."

My eyes widened at he said, that is not what I meant! But then, before I could even fire another word at him, Eren instantly captured my lips, preventing me to utter another word.

"Damn. I love you," he said in between the kisses. His hand dangerously going lower.

Eren's slip went down to my jaw and then to my neck. I moanes when he slightly bit it and all I could do was to depend my life on his hair. His kisses went lower until he reached my breast.

I bit my lip when I felt his other hand attempting to remove my top. Eren's eyes were staring right through mine as he did it.

"Don't!" I suddenly said when he was about to remove my top.

"E-Eren," I moaned again.

And thank God, he did stop and looked at me with a smirk, he held my chin and made me look at him too.

"Yes, love?"

"T-They might hear us..." I said in a low voice as I bit my lips which made him groan in response.

"You fucking know how to turn me on, don't you?" He dangerously asked.

However, I wasn't hearing anything now, nothing could process inside my head as I was just staring at his lips. Earlier, I wanted him to stop for a second, but now? Oh hell, I would even beg for him to kiss me.

I leaned in hungry for those lips and was about to kiss himwhen Eren avoided mine by tilting his head to the side, he was smirking widely and obviously, he's enjoying this fucking hell. My lips protruded as I glared at him.

He just kept on smirking which annoyed the hell of me, "What? Earlier, you wanted me to stop and then now—"

I never waited him to finish, instead, I grabbed his jaw and sealed his tempting lips on mine. I snaked my arms around his neck and forced his head to get closer for me to kiss him torridly. If he won't fucking kiss me, then I'll fucking force him.

Because after all, he was the one who initiated this.

Our kiss wasn't even slow nor gentle, our tongues were fighting each other, but I can't just really get enough of him and it goes the same way to this man. Eren, when it comes to these things, was damn insatiable.

I could feel all my sorrows and heartaches going away, temporarily, of course.

The only thing that was in my mind now was his kisses and his groans every time my hands tries to do something naughty.

He was in control for this night, and he probably won't stop until dawn.

The next thing I knew, we were both naked and he was thrusting fastly inside me while I was literally calling all the saints I knew.

Our desire for this was insatiable. We knew we both liked it. Oh no, we loved it.

"Fuck. Moan my name, love . . . Just my name . . ." He whispered in my ears as he thrust harder which I obliged with anothet moan.

And that night, I gave in. Yes, this was my first, he was my first, and I will always treasure and remember this night for a lifetime.

Now I know how pleasure really feels like, it makes me want to crave for more.

END OF CHAPTER 12.