Together, But Not Forever | Eren

16. Chapter Sixteen

Sixteenth Chapter : Missing Him

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Days passed by and I wasn't getting any better. I was still missing the man I love.

But the thing was, no tears escaped from my eyes eversince the day Eren left. Not even a drop.

We haven't heard anything from him yet too.

A month before Eren left, we held some Marleyans as captives and they were cooperative enough to help us with almost everything we need.

It seems like they were happy too.

My friends kept on cheering me up. And honestly, maybe I would get better faster if it was Reiner and Bertholdt together with Sasha whou would cheer me up.

Sadly, the world was greedy enough to not give me what I want.

I think the world really hates me for a reason I don't even know and I don't think I'll ever know.

Sadly, there was no one to preach me about not getting so emotional about dumb shits now.

Because he already left for the sake of the land as well as the people.

Inshort, the Humanity istelf.

He was the only one whom we can trust. With him being a Titan shifter and having two Titans, he was powerful enough to spy on the enemies' side alone.

In fact, I was a bit worried. I have been so paranoid since he left.

My mind was filled with so many freaking what and what ifs. Like, what if they found out that he's an enemy?

Connie, Sasha, Jean, and the others kept on reassuring me that it will never happen but then, I saw the hesitatio  in their eyes.

Like they weren't even sure of what will happen.

Hange–san and the Lance Corporal would often visit me too, ask me if I'm fine which was freaking obvious that I'm not but says I'm fine anyway.

'Cause they have their own problems and I wouldn't want to add up on that. I had to carry mine on my own to not bother other people's businisses.

I was currently sitting on the grass in the field which Eren and I first talked alone, when I felt someone sit beside me.

"Is our ODM machine fine now?" A female voice joked which made me look at her.

Oh, it was Historia. She was wearing a  cloth that a queen must wear.

I smiled at her. This woman once liked Eren too. That was how handsome Eren is. It makes me hate that fact sometimes.

If your man's handsome, girls would flock on their feet.

The good thing was, I am confidently beautiful to so no big deal. Thanks to my parent's genes.

"Hmm, I don't know." I responded with my head dipped.

I didn't want her to see my sleepless face 'cause I don't want them to worry about me.

Not too long after, I could hear my other friends now. I was right, Historia wasn't alone. She brought the whole squad with her.

"Y/NNNNN!" Connie's loud voice rang insdie my ear which made me look at their direction.

They were showing the foods they brought, probably trying to boast it.

I chuckled a bit. These guys are really the best.

"Hey, Y/N. I don't really share foods but here, a micropiece of potato. Be thankful!" Sasha told me while giving  me a very very tiny piece of her food.

How generous.

Me and my friends talked for a while until we decided to separate now 'cauee it's already late.

They made sure to ask if I was already feeling well. And of course, to not worry them, I said. "I'm fine now."

Which is a lie. A very big lie.

But whatever, they're going through pain too. Especially Connie, the issue with his mom and of course, Armin's conscience towards Bertholdt.

Mikasa too, he missess Eren just as I do. See? It's not just me.

The world is unfair for every single person in it but it's on how you carry it with your shoulders.

And sadly, I took it the emotional way.

I closed my room's door and leaned my forehead while I cried silently.

"I...miss you," I whispered while a small smile broke into my lips.

[  end of chapter sixteen ]

a / n : a very short chapter of you, missing your man.