Michael Evans Behling Imagines

Hurting

You had no idea what triggered it but you knew that you were having a panic attack. It was sudden and took you by surprise so much that you couldn't even call the one person you knew that you could rely on to bring you back from that state of mind. Your hot tears escaped your eyes and rolled down your cheeks as horrid memories of the day flashed in your head. You didn't tell anyone other than your boyfriend and your best friend, Michael about what really happened to you that day you walked home because Hunter decided to forget to pick you up. You didn't think that you would ever feel like this. Like you needed to end the pain by any means necessary. Every person that knew you knew that you were stronger than the shit you went through that night and you wondered why it was still a huge part of your life even if it was seven months ago.

The same with the other people you called that know that your panic attacks can be either mild or extreme. You inhaled sharply, feeling like the air in your lungs had disappeared completely along with your vision blurring from the torrent of tears that formed at the brim of your eyes, you ended up dialing the only person that would be there in a heartbeat. The memories were too much to handle. you didn't want to be seen as some girl that got shattered by one traumatic night.

You cried as loud, heartbreaking sobs racked your body and slipped past your lips. You hugged your knees and bit into your hoodie sleeve a second too late as you choked on a loud sob, worrying the male on the other end of the phone who perked up as soon as he heard your cries and hastily got dressed. He didn't end the call but he traced your phone number to a secluded area that he liked to visit when his head was clouded with horrid thoughts.

He didn't want to to hang up so he put you on speaker and raced to you. When he parked his car, he didn't even bother to lock it as he heard sobs coming from his sacred place of peace. The sobs and cries got louder as he approached you. He stopped short a few feet away from you as he saw you moving to the edge of cliff that overlooked Los Angeles. His body worked faster than his mind as he dove off the edge to try save you from dying a painful death.

Your body had already hit the water seconds before he did but those few seconds felt like a lifetime. As soon as his body made contact with the freezing water he swam to where he last saw your body before diving into the water to find you. Remember those seconds that felt like a lifetime? They felt like eternity as he swam through the freezing water until he finally got a grip on your body.

You were losing consciousness when you felt yourself being pulled to the surface but you'd already lost the last bit of your consciousness as it was replaced by water filling your lungs. He pulled himself onto the shore with your body in his arms as soon as he could stand. He felt like he was going to pass out from the overexertion but he persisted before dropping to his knees and attempting to evict the water in your lungs.

His hope dwindled as the moments passed without you waking up. Tears fell freely from his beautiful brown eyes as he continued to try and save you. Frustratedly, he started punching your chest with enough pressure that forced the water out of your lungs and you choked as he held you in his arms while you threw up the remaining water in your lungs.

He looked at you before he kissed your forehead and held you close to him. You opened your mouth to speak but it came out as a whisper. "I'm sorry Mikey. I was hurting and I didn't know what else to do."

Michael silenced you as he carries the both of you to his car and headed to his place for the night after getting your stuff from the cliff's edge. The car ride was silent but the pending conversation was not going to be a pleasant one whatsoever. Michael was just happy that he got to you in time and saved you. He couldn't bare to live in a world without you.

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Hi people. So as you know, today's valentines day and it's been super shitty bc I've been feeling unloved by everyone while taking care of my uncle's baby while he went out with his gf and his baby swore at me yesterday when I tried to feed her, so I'm sorry that this update is so depressing but I decided that I should not be obliged to make a happy imagine bc the day has been horrible for me. I've been dealing with my own problems and I had a severe panic attack before writing this so that inspired me to write this.

By the way, I'm not suicidal. I just needed the reader to feel like they had nobody to turn to when shit hit the fan and ik that the descriptions were a bit much but I felt the need to go into detail because of how I'm feeling. I hope you understand that I'll always be available to talk if you need someone to talk to. Just drop a private message and I'll respond as soon as I get the notification.

You're all beautiful people that deserve to be loved in every sense of the word. I'm going to try and update daily but if I can't. I'll let you know why I didn't at the end of the imagine.

With love,
Cisco❤️