Bts sickfics (cause there really aren't enough)- REQUESTS CLOSED

An update on me.

I was gonna wait until i finish the chapter i have sat in drafts to say this, but im not going to finish it any time soon, and y'all deserve to know whats going on. So heres whats happening.

Sickfics don't have the same affect on me that they used to.

I used to get that pang we now call ouchies all the time, i use to read sickfics to seek that pain and feel satisfied. But these days, it feels like nothing i read or write can give me that anymore. The novelty has worn off, i guess.

I love sickfics, but i need a break.

I hope that maybe if i take a break away from sickfics that i can come back with a fresh start and feel those ouchies again, feel the same thing i used to feel, get what i got out of sickfics before, again. 

I loved writing sickfics. I still love writing, but when i write sickfics, it never feels like enough. Like im always seeking more and more, craving that feeling, desperate to feel it again. but i can't. Nothing works. Now writing sickfics feels like a chore. I feel like im rushing through it when i write, feeling like nothing i write is good enough. 

I'm not going forever. I will come back. I just need a break for a while so i can get back to how i used to be. Go back to feeling that pain with every fic i read and write. 

Thank you for understanding. 

With love,

your author-nim, Rhia. 💜