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Namjoon- dyspraxia

Ok i can do namjoon now lmao. I don't have anything to say, so... lets just get on with it.

There's no doubt that Namjoon has always been clumsy. He was always tripping over his own feet, dropping things. He struggled to learn left from right and would always put the wrong shoes on the wrong feet. At first his parents thought he was just clumsy, but they started looking into it more, and realise that he probably had dyspraxia. He didn't learn to walk until long after the usual milestone, He struggled to play with some of his toys, and would get easily frustrated when he couldn't do something. He struggled to learn how to use chopsticks, and was still using training chopsticks into his late childhood. Something wasn't right.

Whenever they got his school reports each year, he was good in everything except sport. His teachers were always saying that he struggled to throw and catch balls, couldn't run long distances without tripping over his own legs, and would get upset when he couldn't do things. This ended up with him always sitting at the back during physical education, to avoid having to do things, and would spend the majority of lesson time crying because he just couldn't do things the same way his peers could.

Also, despite being smart, his teachers struggled to read his work because his handwriting was sloppy and inconsistent. While that may be normal for children, his handwriting was especially sloppy, and it took a long time to improve.

Also, poor little namjoon never had many friends. He struggled to make friends when all his other classmates would tease him for being clumsy and not being able to do such simple things as throwing and catching a ball. So he spent recess alone in the corner, reading a book usually.

One type of book he loved to read was poetry books. He was always so intrigued by how poets manage to convey such topics in such ways. It fascinated him.

As I'm sure you can imagine, this is what led him down the path to becoming the idol he is today. Poetry slowly led him to rap, and he started learning all the ins and outs of rapping. He wanted to become a rapper.

What he didn't expect, was to become an idol. He joined bighit, and not long later bang pd was talking about forming an idol group with him and a few others. At first this struck fear in him, and being an idol involved dancing. He'd already had some training in dance, and he was terrible at it. He struggled to copy the moves, and kept getting his directions mixed up. However bang pd assured it would be a purely hiphop group with no intense dances.... That lasted long....

He would stay at practice for hours after everyone had left to get in the extra practice to make sure he knew exactly how to move his limbs and when. It took a lot of mental effort for him. He was so exhausted constantly, and all that along side having to manage the group at the same time as the leader.

At times he thought maybe he should quit. Maybe he should just give up on this dream. But he didn't want to let the other members down, so he stayed.

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Now, 7 years later, the band is one of the biggest in the world. How namjoon got here, he doesn't know. He expected the band to get nowhere all because of him and his 'terrible' dancing. But things took a turn, and now, here he is.

They were practicing for their next comeback, and this dance was especially hard. It was physically draining, but also a lot of the movements were complicated and intricate, which made it especially hard for namjoon. So he stayed behind after hours to make sure he could get every move right. It was hard. He kept mixing up right from left and up from down, he struggled to move his arms and legs at the same time. It was frustrating.

He was exhausted from doing all this extra practice, and his brain was exhausted from concentrating so hard on moving the right limb in the right way. He was so jealous of how it came so naturally to the others. They could easily mimic the moves without having to think too hard about it, or try several times over.