you my girl.

suck my -

lamelos pov

"melo?!"

"yea my bad" i lift my head off the table.

"we have games all week what the fuck is your problem" gelo saids unpacking his bag

"i'm just tired i guess" i stare at one spot on the wall, making everything else a blur

"nah you've been like this for like a week now" he says

"hmm i don't know" i blink slowly

"ight well you can talk to me bro, you really look raggy right now" he looks at me

"right for sure, thanks bro" i didn't even hear him

"actin so weird man" he walks out of the room when he gets a call

"breathe in... breathe outtt" i remind myself how to breathe. i really forget sometimes. like when i'm thinking so hard, or about so much.

it feels like i can't feel anything right now. like i'm trying not to have emotions just so it doesn't hurt.

so, i've been thinking about everything but nothing at all. i'm super out of it right now.

how do you go from talking to someone every single day , all day, to not at all. it's weird, it's erie

it gives me anxiety not knowing what's going on with anything. like i never broke up with danny, she never broke up with me. but i haven't heard for her in 2 weeks.

i stopped texting her last week. the balls in her court, i've reacted out multiple times. not one phone call, not one message, she's not even reading my shit anymore

her whole fucking family unfollowed me on instagram. CORTLYNN EVEN DID and he's in love with me.

it's whatever. but it's not really whatever because gionni was definitely becoming family and he hasn't even said anything. like fs that's ur sister n all but you could at least ask my side of the fucking story

"hey me j-ray and devin or going to get food, you coming" gelo pops back in

"no i'm good thanks"

"you gonna drive yourself crazy, come on" he insisted

he was right, i should definitely go

"i don't feel good, bring me back something please" i say with my eyes closed, head on the table

he walked out without saying anything else

i felt so weird, like you know that feeling where it feels like your floating and your not alive. that's been me.

but at the end of the day i'll obviously survive. 'patients is key'- dr. jones

danny's pov

"you ready to go school shoppinggggg" dorian walks in my room

"yeah i'm ready" i get out of bed with an 2x shirt on and some sweatpants. i looked like shit

"alright let's go have some fun" he says, paying my outfit no mind.  that kinda made me happy that he didn't care. i put on my fuzzy slides and left