you my girl.

"closing" a chapter

lamelos pov

"so i decided that i wanna go back to high school"

"why, i hate chino hills"

"not to chino, i'm going to ohio" i look up at her blank face

"why..." she looks down

"because spire is the best school we could find. had nothing to do with you really"

"oh, well that's good i'm glad" she wasn't

"i'm glad that you're glad"  i find something to say

"yep..." she slowly popped the p

we sat in silence while my eyes covered the room, thinking of what to say next

she looked bored, unamused. i felt like i was drowning, or ruining any change we had

conversation was never a problem for us, we always had something to say

she takes a drink of sweet tea and taps her fingers on the table

"so how's your depression"  i heard how bad it sounded as soon as it left my mouth

"good thanks for asking" she says without looking up

"not like that, i just mean are you happy?"

"yeah i am, thanks" she rolled her eyes, but not directly at me

"i don't want stuff to be awkward dan"

"well it is" she ties the straw paper around her finger

i noticed she was doing anything not to look at me

"what will make it less awkward"

"how am i supposed to know" she shrugged her shoulders

"how's jaizen"

she sighed and shook her head, she slowly started to smile, and that turned into laughing

"what" i was confused

"nothing lamelo" she was clearly frustrated

"i really don't know what your problem is"

"my problem is you wanna act like a dick, then act like it never happened.  never once have you apologized for anything you've done the last few months, and you expect it to go away" she looks at me now

"i would've apologized, you know that. but you didn't give me enough time"

"bullshit, it shouldn't have happened in the first place"

"but if you really think about it, danny this is all your fault" i keep it real.

she sits with a blank face

"and how is that so" she says in a low tone

"if you would've listened to me when i said we needed a short temporary brake, we would be packing for ohio together right now"

"you know damn well if i said that to you, you would've reacted worse then me"

"maybe, but a least admit that you just didn't listen"

"admit that you're toxic" she leans closer to the table.

"me? you're the toxic one" i laughed

"if i'm toxic then why do you want me back"

"who said i did"

"then why are we here"

"good question i don't know"