chapter 51 - w e d d i n g

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TW: slight panic attack

p.s. not edited very well bc i j wanted to get a chapter out for y'all

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Weddings. Weddings were meant for two people to vow to each other that they would love each other for the rest of their life no matter what happened. They were a place to watch two people in love be together and see the love they had for each other. Basically if you were single and attending a wedding, you were most likely going to realize how fucking lonely you are.

Weddings were also a place to have one-night stands to make yourself feel less lonely for a night. As long as you weren't going home alone, you were set for the night.

Natalia loved weddings. She loved seeing happy couples all around her even though she had barely been to any in her life. It's not like anyone really knew about her so it was hard for her to go to any. The whole idea of it was something she admired but she didn't know if she would ever get to experience that.

She really thought her and Fred were going to get engaged, then married but it seemed like he didn't think the same. Natalia regretted sleeping with him two nights ago. She knew that by doing that it would make her stay in love with him when she was trying so fucking hard to move on. She was annoyed that Fred hadn't stopped them that night either. Natalia still wasn't able to remember everything showing that she wasn't even in the right state of mind to consent. If Fred really cared about her he wouldn't have taken her back to his flat.

"Fuck Lia what if he leaves me at the alter?" Bella said, freaking out. Last-minute worries were common with weddings but Natalia made sure to re-assure her.

"Bella I promise you if Dylan leaves, I will not hesitate to beat his fucking ass okay? Plus he is so in love with you and he would never do that. You're gonna get married today and then go on an amazing honeymoon where you're gonna have a lot of fun and sex okay?"

"I love you so much," Bella said while pulling Natalia into an awkward hug, trying not to rip her wedding dress.

"Okay now I'm going to make sure everything is okay outside so I won't see you until you're on the altar okay? I love you so much Bella and Dylan is probably going to fall in love with you all over again just seeing you walk down the aisle," Natalia said, trying not to cry.

"You're making me ruin my makeup, shit," Bella said while holding her fingers under her eyes trying to keep the tears in.

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Natalia had her hand looped around Kalen's hand while walking down the aisle. Each of the bridesmaids and groomsmen were paired together, Pansy with Theo, Eli with Tori, and Kalen with Natalia.

"You look beautiful Natalia," Kalen whispered in her ear before slipping away to make his way to the groom's side. Natalia made her way to the bride's side before making eye contact with Kalen and mouthing 'thank you and you look handsome' back to him. Kalen just smiled and was about to respond before the piano started playing.

The doors opened to Bella, hand-in-hand with her dad, making her way down the aisle, looking as beautiful as ever.

Natalia looked over at Dylan and saw a huge smile on his face with tears slowly making their way down his cheeks.

The wedding went by quickly and now it was time for the reception. Natalia knew that Fred, George, and Lee were invited to the wedding but so far she had only seen Lee. Natalia and Lee were very close before and she didn't want him to feel like she ditched him. It was just hard seeing Lee when she knew that the only reason why they became friends was because of Fred.

"Hey Natalia," she heard, interrupting her thoughts.

"Lee," she said with a smile on her face. Natalia instantly pulled him into a hug. "How are you?"

"I'm okay yeah. What about you? You feeling any better about the whole Fred situation?" Lee asked. 

"I don't know. I still love him but it's hard. It's hard that he doesn't want to try anymore and that he gave up."

"Trust me I made sure Fred realizes what he lost and I know he fucked up but it's hurting him too. Maybe you two should just talk it out," Lee suggested.

"I would but I don't want to be the one crawling back to him. Especially since we slept together and I don't remember any of it-"

"You two didn't sleep together."

"What?"

"Fred explained what happened as soon as he woke up. There was a guy hitting on you and you were uncomfortable so he took you back to his place and you fell asleep on his bed with him. You two didn't have sex."

"Why didn't he tell me that then? He just let me assume that we slept together," Natalia said slightly annoyed.

"He was going to tell you when you woke up but you already left and George didn't know what happened. And yesterday he didn't have any time to see you because you were busy with last-minute wedding plans so he wanted to wait," Lee explained.

"That's- I- Fuck- I'll be right back," Natalia said before running to the bathroom. She felt sick. She ran into the stall and instantly fell to the toilet, dry heaving into it. Tears were pouring down her face and she was hyperventilating feeling like she couldn't breathe.

Another panic attack. These were more common now ever since her and Fred broke up. Normally Fred helped her through them but now she was alone. She had no one which felt more suffocating than having multiple people around her.

A good 20 minutes had passed before Natalia was able to even look presentable to leave the bathroom, needing to find Kalen so they could give their speeches. Kalen and Natalia teamed up just as Tori and Eli to make it easier and not waste more time.

When Natalia left the bathroom, she bumped into a hard body. She didn't care who it was and tried to walk past him when he caught her elbow.

"What?" she shouted before turning around.

"Nat," he said noticing Natalia's face fall when she saw him.

"I have to go," she said before pulling her hand so Fred wasn't holding her elbow anymore.

"Can we please talk Nat?"

"First you don't get to call me that anymore. Second I have to find Kalen okay, I can't talk right now," she explained.

"Are you dating him?" Fred asked.

"It's none of your business Fred. Remember you're the one who broke up with me."

"I'm sorry-"

"I have to go ," Natalia said, leaving Fred all alone and making her way to find Kalen.

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Natalia and Kalen had finished their speeches and she was just sitting by the bar alone, twirling the glass of alcohol in her hand. She was in the middle of a conversation with the bartender when a voice interrupted.

"One night. Give me one night with you."

"It's not a good idea," Natalia said shaking her head.

"If it doesn't work out then fine I'll stop pursuing you but one night. We can stop whenever you want but we're both lonely and I'm not even going to be here for much longer."

"And you're sure about this?"

"Hundred percent."

"One night?" Natalia asked.

"One night," he replied.

Like I said, weddings were a place to have one-night stands.


A/N:

i love you all and i'm sorry for the long wait i had a lot of stress and anxiety last week over school and had at least 4-5 mental breakdowns

i was planning to write on the weekend and then i got fucking crossed and that was fun even tho i don't remember anything that happened oops

anyways mwah ily all and have an amazing morning/day/evening/night :)

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