Spring Breeze {Larry Stylinson book 4}

Chapter 19

It's only a five minute drive to the place Gemma thinks her brother is hiding. She steps out of the car and a smile on her face appears when she sees a curly boy sitting in the grass. This is the spot where the siblings used to hide when their mother was angry with them, school sucked and  when they got broken up with stupid high school lovers. Gemma locks the car and walks towards her brother.

"Hey little bro." Her voice is soft and she puts an arm around Harry's shoulder. He hears the younger boy sob and his jeans are soaked from all the tears he has cried on his knees.

"Did he leave already?" is the first thing Harry asks.

"No, no he did not. He is waiting for you at my house. You should come with me and talk to him." Gemma is rubbing her brothers' back.

"I don't want to talk to him. He wants to leave me. I keep giving everything up for him, my career, my family yet he keeps leaving me. Why, Gems? Am I not good enough?" Harry's shoulders are shocking and Gemma literally feels her heart break.

"You should talk to him, Haz. He doesn't want to leave you. He wanted to protect you. I know it sounds really stupid but it is the truth. I talked to him. He is as bad as you are, baby bro."

Harry shakes his head.

"He doesn't have the right. He is the one that wanted to break off our engagement, not me. He has no right to cry. This is his decision. It's like he always looks for reasons to walk away. I don't know what I can do more to show him that he is everything. I fucking proposed to him in Paris!"

Gemma shushes her brother and pulls him in a hug.

"I know it sounded bad, Haz but it isn't. Just come to my house and talk with him. He has a reason why he told you this. He is not running away. He only wants the best for you baby bro. He just made a wrong decision. He doesn't have any bad intentions. Now please come with me. I want to go back to Anna and I'm not leaving you alone." Harry nods and follows his sister to her car. He is honestly dreading to talk to Louis.

Gemma is gone for a while now and little Anna woke up. Louis took a bottle of milk and now he is feeding the little girl. He has a lot of experience having four little sisters.

After she finished the bottle, Louis takes the girl downstairs with him. She is lying down in his arms and Louis can't stop hugging her.

"One day you will have a little niece or nephew and then I want you to be best friends with him or her, okay? You will have to play games with them, help them with homework, have movie nights together,  teach them things I don't want them to be taught. That's all your job sweetheart. You'll be the cool niece of me and uncle Hazza's kid one day is that a deal? In return I'll be the cool uncle that does this stuff with you, princess." He talks to the little baby.

The girl is watching him with big eyes and just giggles.

"And don't worry, they won't make me love you any less. You are such a sweetheart. Uncle Louis made a little mistake. Actually he made a big mistake. But you are praying that he is fixing everything with uncle Hazza, yeah? Uncle Louis loves uncle Hazza very much."

Louis' conversation with the little girl got interrupted by someone scraping their throat. Louis looks up and sees Gemma.

"I'm going for a walk with Anna so you and Harry have privacy. He is in the garden." Louis nods and hands the little girl over to her mother.

"Thank you, Gemma."

She nods and wishes the boy good luck before leaving.

Louis is scared to talk to Harry. He knows he is in the wrong while he really thought he was doing a good thing. He looks at the boy sitting on the bench and he silently makes his way towards him and sits next to the curly lad.

"Hazza..." Louis' voice is barely a whisper.

"Surprised you are still here." Harry snaps.

"I'm so sorry, baby. I didn't want to hurt you. I just wanted to help you, I promise."

"How is you leaving me and running away from me helping me, Louis? It's quite the opposite. You should have supported me after what happened and the only thing you did was giving me more pain."

Louis' heart is crumbling when he hears the words. He never wanted to give his Hazza more pain. He only wanted to save him from pain.

"I know I hurt you. Gemma made me realise I did. I didn't want to do that, love. I really did not. I was just scared that..." Louis tears are falling down again and it catches Harry's attention. Even though he is fighting with the boy next to him, he can't stand seeing him cry. He puts his arm around him and pulls him closer for comfort.

"Why were you scared, Louis? That I would leave you?"

Louis shakes his head.

"I lost my mom, Harry. And I know I would give up everything to see her. I felt so bad for being the reason you lose your mom. I know the pain I felt, the pain I'm still feeling every single day not being able to see her or hug her. It still crashes me. I thought I would save you from that pain if I would just disappear. I don't want you to feel that pain. It's unbearable."

Harry feels bad for lashing out on the older boy but he wants Louis to understand him as well.

"You need to promise me that you let me make my own decisions. If I pick you Louis William Tomlinson that means I want you and nothing or no one else. Do you get that?"

Louis nods guilty.

"And I need you to promise me to never leave me. I don't know what I would have done if you actually would have walked out that door. I'd gone mad. You can't leave me, boo. I know I am your only family but now you are also mine together with Gemma. It's us, baby." Harry's voice is shaking and Louis only nods.

"I am really sorry Hazza. I really really am. I love you and I only want you to be happy, that's it." A small smile appears on Harry's face.

"If you want me to be happy then please start realising that you are my happiness boo and nothing else. Love yourself like I love you. You are everything to me and I need you to realise that. I want to marry you Louis Tomlinson. I want to be your husband and I want to adopt a lot of babies with you. When I see you with Anna... I see my future in front of me, Lou. Promise me that will be us one day." Harry is leaning his forehead against Louis'.

"I promise you. There is nothing else I want more as well. Can I kiss you?" Harry chuckles and nods, connecting his own lips with the ones of the smaller boy.