Is he worth it?

Chapter 20 I have worms.

PJs POV

A month has gone by since I got back home. I was finally able to get caught back up with my assignments from school. Since Noah told my job I was in a car accident, I kind of used that as an excuse for school as well. Okay not kind of I did, but if I hadn't, I wouldn't have been able to make up the assignments I missed. I am about to graduate and be done with school forever there was no way I was going to let a few assignments make me fail.

When I finally went back to work everyone was acting so kind towards me. I felt bad because I wasn't really in a car accident, but after the hell I went through, I got over that guilt quickly. I know my best friends don't believe my shit excuse, but what else am I suppose to say to them? I feel so bad for lying to them, but I can't tell them anything and possibly put them in danger too.

In other news I got my cast taken off and confirmed I was pregnant. I thought after all that trauma I went through, I was going to loose the baby for sure, but it turns out I have a fighter growing in me. My first appointment is today! I'm so scared to tell Noah. I'm not even sure if I should tell him. I haven't spoken to him since he left that day. I'm not sure what I should say or if I even want to say anything. I don't know how he will react to me being pregnant. I miss him... I need to tell him soon, but I keep getting inside of my head.

This past month has been so weird, and I've felt more on edge. I have had nightmares every night. I hate waking up in a panic feeling like my life is going to end. It's those moments that I wish to go back to Bill and Carols house and not remember anything. Life was so much simpler then. Sometimes I feel like someone is always watching me or following me, but I'm probably just paranoid. Then again I could get kidnapped again, so I only go out in daylight and get home before night time.

"Hey! You okay?" Tayla said snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Oh. Yeah." I look up to her and I smile. Fuck. I'm gonna tell them. Fuck it.

"Actually, no. I have something to tell you and Shalaya." Oh. Fuck. What did I just do? I feel like I need to throw up. Now I actually have to tell them. I mean what was I going to say when my stomach got really round? Sorry for not telling you guys, but I have worms. It was now or never.

"I heard my name. Your favorite person is here." Shalaya says strutting into my office. I laugh. I missed them so much. They really know how to make me feel like me again with out even trying. I just needed to get back to my normal.

"She needs to tel-" I cut Tayla off before she could finish her sentence.

"I'm pregnant!" I shout. I threw my hand over my mouth as my eyes bulged from it's sockets. I can't believe I just blurted it out like that. They both looked at me wide eyed.

"I fucking knew it! You are glowing! I fucking new it dude!" Shalaya said excitedly jumping up and down. I blushed and looked over at Tayla.

"How do you feel about it? Are we happy?" She asked.

"Umm...To be honest I am really fucking scared. I didn't think I was going to be pregnant this early in my life."

"WAIT A MINTUTE! You nasty nasty!! You didn't use a condom!!" Shalaya said surprised, but proud. I just laughed and shook my head.

"Well if you are happy, I'm happy. Does Noah know?" She asked about Noah and I didn't tell them that we weren't even on speaking terms, but maybe I could use this as an advantage to get them off my back about the trip with him.

"No, but I have known I have been pregnant for a little bit now and I was going to tell him on our trip. Which is why I wanted to take the trip in the first place, but I chickened out." I put my head down because lying to them was killing me, but I really didn't want them to be involved and potentially get hurt. Was this how Noah felt when he didn't want to tell me about him being in a gang?

"Don't be a pussy! You have to tell him!" I laughed at Shalaya's comment while wiping a tear from my eye.

"Aww best friend don't cry." Said Tayla getting up and hugging me.

"It's the hormones." I laugh again wiping more tears.

"It's okay. I do agree with Shay though. You need to tell him. We support you one hundred percent, but he also made this baby with you and he deserves to know."

"I don't deserve you guys, but yes I'm going to tell him. My first appointment is today, and I'm nervous to go. Would you guys want to go with me?" I ask nervously.

"Umm Fuck yes!! I am so excited! I am going to be an aunt!!" Shalaya jumped up and down. Tayla and I just both laughed.

"Okay cool. My appointment is at 5:30. After the appointment I'll go and tell Noah and surprise him with the sonogram picture."

"Sounds good!"