Is he worth it?

Chapter 21 Breathe.

PJs POV

I am so happy that I told my best friends. They seemed to have bought the going away with Noah part, so maybe they will be off my back about it. They were worried about the little cuts on my arm, but I told them I fell while hiking through some bushes. Everything is going to be fine. Hopefully.

"You ready to go to your appointment?" Tayla said clapping her hands excitedly.

"Yes, let's go." I smile and grab my stuff. We all decided to take our own cars there, so we could go our separate ways afterwards. We all walk in the doctor's office and see a woman who looks like she is about to pop. Tay and Shay go sit down in the black leather chairs while I walk up to the counter to check in.

"Hello. Do you have an appointment?" A lady wearing purple scrubs with long dirty blonde hair asked.

"Yes, I do." I smile.

"Okay. Last name?"

"Moore."

"Alright. Parker-Jane here you are. I am going to have you fill these papers out and then you can just bring them back up to me."

"Okay!" I took the clipboard of papers and walked over to where my best friends were sitting at and started to fill out my information.

"First baby?" The lady who looked like she was about ready to give birth asked.

"That obvious?" I laughed. She smiled.

"It's okay. I remember my first. I was scared out of my mind and now look at me about to have quint's." My eyes go wide as I look over at Tayla. No wonder she looked like she's ready to pop.

"Wow. So, you are going from one kid to six kids?" Shalaya asked.

"Yes." She nodded.

"Wow and here I am scared of having one kid." I gulped.

"Rightfully though because I was scared with my first too. It's okay. You will figure out what is best for you and your family." She smiled.

"Parker-Jane?" A nurse called from the door. I looked her way and started to head that way.

"Bye! Good luck with your babies." I waved at the pregnant woman.

"Have fun with your first!" She smiled and waved back. I walked back to a room with the nurse and she had me lay down on the khaki bed chair. I looked over at My best friends with a nervous look. Tay looked content, but Shay had the look of excitement on her face. Then my doctor walked in.

"Hello Parker-Jane. My name is Doctor Heidi." she held out her hand.

"Hi. You can call me PJ." I shook her hand back.

"Okay. PJ it is then. I know you must have questions. I will be happy to answer any. Today we will just be checking how far along you are and making sure baby is developing okay and a due date. Okay?"

"Okay."

"Alright I am going to have you lift up your shirt a little and unbutton your jeans. This gel is going to be a little cold." I nod at her as she starts to put the gel on my stomach.

"Oh! That is cold." I chuckle. She starts to move the wand looking thing around my stomach. Everyone was quiet trying to listen for a heartbeat. After what seemed like forever there was still nothing. I started to get scared. I know I was pregnant when I got kidnapped. Could all that stress have caused me to lose the baby? Just as tears started to form, we heard a heartbeat and I let out a breath I had no idea I was holding in.

"Looks like baby is doing great." Doctor Heidi smiled. I looked over at Tayla and Shalaya who had tears in their eyes. That was my baby. Still growing strong.

"Okay looks like you are about 3 months along. Baby is looking a little small, but nothing we are too worried about for right now. Your due date is June 1st! At your next appointment next month is when you will be able to find out the sex of the baby."

"Okay. Wow. That's great." I say still in shock at the fact that I am actually having a baby. She wipes the gel from my stomach.

"Okay and here are your first pictures of your baby." She handed me some black and grey looking pictures. I started to cry tears of joy.

"Wow. Look guys." I lean up and show my best friends.

"That is so weird. There's like a tiny human in you!" Shalaya said. Tayla and I just laughed at her. We got up and walked back to the front, so I could set a date for my next appointment and once I was done doing that we walked out to our cars.

"Okay now you have to go tell Noah and no chickening out this time!" Tayla demanded.

"I know. I know. I am really scared though. What if he doesn't want anything to do with me after I tell him?"

"Then fuck him. You have us!" Said Shalaya.

"He doesn't deserve you then and we will be by your side, but he still needs to know." I took a deep breath.

"Okay. I got this." We all got into our cars and left. I went all the way home because I needed to turn in an assignment really quickly. Truth is I was stalling because I was so scared. As much as I love Noah, when he gets angry it is a bit scary, but I need to stop stalling I need to go now. I got in my car and started to drive to Noah's house.

"Okay. We can do this. He is going to be happy." I stated out loud.

"I can't do this. I'm not feeling well." I turned my car back around and started to drive back to my house. As I was driving back Tayla popped into my head.

"You better not be going back home! Don't pussy out. He needs to know!"

Shit. She was right. I swerved and turned my car back around to head back to Noah's place. I think I spaced out while driving, which is scary if you think about it, because I pulled up into his driveway, but barely remember driving here.

"Breathe." I got out and knocked on the black front door. His brother Grant opened the door.

"Oh, hey PJ long time no see." He said coming in for a hug. I hugged him back. Until I heard someone clear their throat.

"Get your hands off of her." That voice. That deep husky voice I missed very much. Grant pulls out of the hug and rolls his eyes.

"Hey Noah." I said quietly with a slight smile. He didn't have an expression on his face, but I could tell in his voice it hurt him when I didn't use his nickname. I just didn't know where we stood and especially not after I was about to drop this bomb on him.

"Hey. Come on. Let's go to my room." I nodded and followed him up the stairs and into his room. He shut the door closed and then we just stared at each other in uncomfortable tension until I began to cry. Noah hurried over to me and embraced me into his arms. I did not hesitate to hug him back. I missed his big muscular arms wrapped around my body. His familiar scent was like heaven entering my nostrils. As much as I wanted to keep stalling, I had to get it done. I pulled away and looked at him while he wiped away my tears with his thumbs.

"Umm... I need to tell you something important. I don't know how you are going to take it, but please don't yell at me. I don't think my heart can take it." I said my voice cracking.

"I won't yell Bubba. You know you can tell me anything." He walked me back, so I could sit on his bed as he crouched down in between my legs. My heart fluttered at the fact that he called me Bubba. I felt more confident now to tell him. I reached in my jacket pocket and pulled out the sonogram pictures then handed it to him.

"Noah, I'm 3 months pregnant." He took the pictures and looked at them and then he looked up at me.