Is he worth it?

Chapter 23 I hate you.

PJs POV

I was about to start eating my lunch when I got a text from Noah.

"Hey after work I want you to meet me here. *sends location*" That's odd. I wonder why he wants me to meet him in the middle of nowhere.

"Okay, but why?"

"I just have to tell you something."

"Okay. I'll see you then!"

I thought that was odd of him, but whatever I trusted him. Maybe he was going to propose to me. I mean we are having a baby together now. Noah is spontaneous like that. Just at the thought entering my head I started to gain a huge smile on my face. That has to be it. Why would he randomly want to meet in the middle of no where? Just as I put my phone down Shalaya and Tayla walked in.

"Sooooo... How did he take it?" Tayla asked. I put my head down pretending to be sad. I had to pull their leg a little because I knew their reactions wouldn't disappoint.

"Oh, so he wants his ass beat?!?" Shalaya said with attitude.

"For once I'm with Shay because he can catch these hands!" Tayla said with her two-piece up. I started laughing at them and their expressions changed.

"I am just kidding you guys! He is so fucking excited. I'm so relieved." I say with a huge smile on my face.

"Oh, shit girl thought I was going to have to get my Glock." Shalaya said sitting down. Tayla and I just looked at her with confused faces.

"You play too much!" Tayla said eating her lunch.

"I know, but you guys should have seen your faces!" I laughed. Tayla started mocking my laugh. I love them so much. I'm glad I have them for support. Not having my mom with me is weird, but my best friends definitely know how to cheer me up.

The day dragged on, but finally I was on my way to meet Noah. I wondered what he wanted to tell me or show me. At this point I had no clue what he could need in the middle of what looked like nowhere. I honestly hoping he is going to propose because that is the only logical reason he could need to meet me out here. I may or may not have filed my nails and put a top coat on them to make them look more presentable on such short notice.

I jammed out to some songs when the destination had said I reached my destination. I pulled up to what looked like an abandoned warehouse. Hm, I guess there is something out here. I saw Noah standing there waiting for me. As I got out, I started to walk towards him with a smile on my face. If there is a secret photographer somewhere I should put on my best award winning smile.

"Hey Bubb-" He cut me off.

"Don't come any closer." He backed away. It kind of hurt my heart. My face changing to confusion.

"Why? What's wrong?" I asked. He had no emotions. I could see him looking at me, but he was looking right through me. Like he wasn't even seeing me.

"I'm breaking up with you. I don't want anything to do with you or the baby." My heart sank and I started to instantly cry.

"You don't mean that." I cried.

"Yes, I do. You and that baby mean nothing to me. I don't care about you." I was crying so hard that I started to get angry.

"but what about when you were fucking jumping for joy excited to be a dad!" I shouted through my tears.

"I thought I was excited, but I lied. I'm not ready to be a father." I was beyond pissed. Not ready to be a father? And did he think I was ready to be a mother? No, but I didn't have a choice. He did this too!

"I hate you." I said through gritted teeth and tears coming down my face. I walked back and got in my car. I was crying to the point where I couldn't catch my breath. How could he do this to me? This was not what I was expecting. I thought he love me? I really fucking fooled myself thinking he was going to propose. I was so stupid, so naive. I called my best friends to come over to my house because at this point, I had no one left. My mom wasn't here and I just need someone to hold me. I want that someone to be Noah so bad, but he doesn't want me anymore.

Noah's POV

As I walked back into the warehouse I started to cry. I didn't want to, but that completely broke me. PJ looked so broken after I told her that. I didn't want to say any of that. I didn't mean any of that, but she couldn't know. I had to protect her and our baby. Tony came up to me and embraced me in a hug.

"It's for the best man. Don't worry we are gonna find them." I nodded and pulled away. At this point I just want the ground to swallow me whole. I feel so dead inside, so empty. I don't know how she will forgive me after this.

"I'm going to head to my room." I said walking away. I had to move into the warehouse to protect my mom and brother as well. I didn't want the other gang showing up at the house. I told my mom that I got a job filming for a movie over in Europe and I would be gone for a year. I don't think she was very happy about me leaving, but happy I got the opportunity. My brother didn't take it well, but what could I do? I knew he looked up to me, but right now I was hardly anybody he should be looking up to. I sat on my bed and flipped on the television. Different parts of PJs house popped up all over the screen. I guess this is how I'm going to be able to be with her for the time being.