Serendipity |bts | OT7|

Forever honey

"That's it baby, almost there you got it."
"Namjoon I can't..."
"You're doing perfect just a bit longer." She took another step feeling to shooting pains through her legs and held onto the wall. "You alright? What me to help?" She shook her head pushing herself away from the wall again walking as comfortably as possible to finally meet his hands. "Well done baby! I knew you could do it! Want me to carry you to bed?" She took a moment to breath and shook her head.
"Can I try walking back? I think I'm getting the hang of it." She smiled through the pain and he nodded helping her turn around. He was an arms length away just in case as she stepped forward focusing on her breathing as she walked towards him slowly.
"You seem a lot better on your feet." He took another step back from her and she smiled eating up the praise he was giving her. They reached the living room finally just as Jin and Hobi got back from the gym. They didn't make their presence known not wanting to throw her off as Namjoon sung her praises watching her get to the couch. "Let me help you sit down baby, you've done really well." She stopped him and thought for a moment.
"Can I try it?"
"Are you sure?" She nodded again steadying herself with her good arm against the back of the couch slowly she let herself sit almost overwhelmed at the fact she did it alone. The boys clapped from the doorway finally directing her attention to them and she smiled widely almost jumping in her seat.
"I did it! Did you see that! I did it on my own!" She squealed happily and namjoon let the boys come over to cover her with more praise leaving for a short moment to return with some water and her medication.
"I'm so proud of you sunshine. You did great, you'll be up and dancing again in no time!" He placed a kiss on her cheek and she smiled even wider at the thought of dancing again. Jin tucked her hair behind her ear smiling.
"Well done sweetheart, how many steps did you take?"
"35." Namjoon came over passing her the drink and pills so she could take them.
"Wow that's a lot!" Jin said with a smile making her laugh.
"I can't wait to tell everyone else! Kookie is going to be so happy!" The door opened and a bag was dropped by it indicating someone was home from a long day, the mood suddenly changed when Jimin entered the room.
Jimin had been avoiding her for the best part of two weeks after the whole doctors visit. Everyone had attempted to talk to him but he was hurt, she had kept this big secret from him. He felt like she didn't trust him and decided he could do with some space.
"How was your day jimie?" She gave a small smile as he looked up from his phone at her for a brief moment before looking back down.
"Jimin." Namjoon said shooting a look to the younger.
"I need a shower." Was the only words he spoke before walking out again. She looked a little hurt and the boys noticed.
"Sunshine-"
"I should talk to him." She tried to push herself up from the chair knowing she had hit her limit for the day but wanted to try it anyway.
"Please don't push yourself. You'll-"
"I'm okay." She gave Jin a smile. "I can do it, I just need to talk to him." They watched as she made her way awkwardly out of the room keeping an eye on her until she reached jimins door and then turning away so they could speak privately assuming they would sort it all out and things would be normal.

"Jimin?" She knocked before opening his door seeing the empty room and she slowly walked in trying to see if he was in there.
"What are you doing?" She turned around a bit to quickly and fell onto his bed cursing herself and holding her stomach with a groan. He huffed walking over and pulling up her shirt to make sure she hadn't hurt herself and then he stood up.
"I wanted to talk to you..."
"I'm busy." She looked a little defeated and looked down.
"Can we talk later then?"
"I'm busy later." He said bluntly leaning against the wall making sure to keep a wide distance between the two of them.
"Okay... Jimin-"
"Can you just leave please. I can't stand it when you whine at me." She felt the embarrassment in her gut and looked away from him not wanting to met his burning stare. She struggled to get up from his low bed but finally found her feet.
"I'm sorry for bothering you."
"Just stay out the way for once yeah?" She was taken back by it all, Jimin was never mean to her. In fact the only time they had ever not spoken was when her and Tae had that argument. He was always so kind and warm towards her. She made it to the door knowing full well her legs weren't going to make it much further and paused in panic at where she could go. "What's talking you so long? I told you to get out the way." He spat her way and she panicked even more than before.
"I can't- I can't move." He walked over to her huffing is dissatisfaction pushing past her not meaning to do it so hard only noticing when she fell against the wall and fell into a heap on the floor visibly hurting herself. He cocked an eyebrow looking at her waiting for a cry that never came.
"I-"
"No. It's my fault. I was in your way." She tried to get up but failed miserably gasping in pain at her legs. He didn't say a word only watching as she managed to push herself back to her feet.
"Luna... let me help you." He stepped forward but she shook her head.
"It's fine you're busy." She held the wall getting herself out of his room and out to the hall. He stopped her with a hand on the shoulder looking at her with wide eyes.
"You're bleeding." He was quick to get her into the bathroom and push up her loose shorts seeing that one of the wounds had opened in her fall. He grabbed the first aid, lucky it was only a small part of it and he could fix it quickly gently placing a plaster over it while she relished in his calm touch.
"It's my fault. I pushed myself too far, I knew walking anymore would-"
"Why did you hide it from me?" His question caught her off guard finally looking up into her eyes and she saw the pain and hurt in them. "Why did you tell them and not me? Don't you trust me? Did I do something wrong?" He blinked hard trying to clear his tears and she shook her head quickly reaching out for him but he stepped backwards out of her way.
"Jimin... I trust you with everything... you did nothing wrong dont-"
"then why didn't you tell me!" He shout shocked even him, his voice cracked when he raised it telling him that his emotions were too high right now and he walked to the door when her voice stopped him.
"I was scared you would walk away." He looked over his shoulder and she leant back against the mirror almost exhausted. "You were so happy at the idea of kids, I was scared that you wouldn't want me. The doctor told Yoongi. And I told Namjoon because I didn't know how to tell the rest of you. He was going to tell you but I got scared. You were all so heart broken over the attack that, I wanted you to heal. I didn't want to break your hearts again." Her confession put all the pieces in place for him. He turned around finally and clenched his jaw.
"You know how silly that is? We would never leave you Luna. I would never leave you. You can't keep secrets from us like that. It's not right."
"I know I fucked up jimin. And I'm paying for it. I pay for it everyday, I wake up and remember that I can't give you what you want and I feel fucking useless. All I-" he took two big steps towards her pulled her face into his as he kissed her like he had been starved, he had, by his own hand of course but he needed to hold her right there. They broke away panting for breath his forehead pressed to hers as his breaths hit her face.
"Don't ever let me hear you call yourself useless again. All I want it for us to be happy and safe. And you give that too me every time I see you smile and hear you laugh. So don't ever think your useless. Understood?" She nodded wrapping her arms around his neck letting him kiss her again. After a while he picked her up walking out the bathroom with her.
"Where are we going?"
"You look tired, and I could use a nap. Cuddles would be a bonus right now." She laughed a little as he placed her on his bed stripping out of his clothes helping her out of her jumper and he paused seeing the wounds for the first time without stitches. The bruises had now faded to a green and yellow tinge and to be completely honest looked worse than before. She became a looking insecure and reached for her jumper but he stopped her. "It's okay honey..." she became less nervous as the nickname fell from his lips. She hadn't heard it in so long she was started to wonder if he would ever say it again. He sat down looking close and decided to place a small kiss over the bruising careful not to touch the sore wounds as he left gentle touches on her arms.
"Can you hold me?" She asked quietly and he looked up giving her a warm smiled.
"Forever honey."