written on 3/12/21
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i'm sure there's a reason
there must be a way
to cover the lesions
you gave me today
no i did not cry
i don't think i can
i don't want to pry
but was this your plan?
to give me your pain
to see how it feels
what more did you gain?
what was the ideal?
why should i stay here
if this isn't love
i think that it's clear
that i've had enough
so why don't i run?
what more could you give?
i just want to be done
i just want to live
my eyes want to close
but not just to sleep
though you would oppose
that's not mine to keep
you take what i owe
and always by force
it's never my own
it's now only yours
i wish i decided to know you
instead of not having the choice to
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don't worry i am okay. if you ever feel anxiety where do you feel it mainly? if it's not just in like my head or chest i feel it in my hands and sometimes also my forearms. idk why but that's what i'm feeling rn but hope you have a good dayyyy
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folie
Poetryjournal-like entries taken from my journal filled with poems and tales that might not make much sense to you. read if you don't mind it, though.