written on 9/28/20
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i won't be forceful
i'm not resentful
not towards you anyway
in some form of an apology
you whisper words that don't make sense
however, in this state of mind,
they might as well have been words of a prayer
the time i've spent not remembering
are the moments you spend trying to remind me
how could i possibly forget precious moments with you?
my saving grace, the fuel to my nightmares
you've brought this shadow of darkness
yet you still shine as bright as any star
and i still feel like i'm drowning
because you plunge my head under the water
in hopes that i'll scream
my lungs burn
i've woken up
maybe it isn't myself that inflicts this pain
you want me to keep hurting
you are desperate for these inflictions
so when i cry out in agony
you are there to comfort me
as if it wasn't you that brought out the worst
i'm sobbing
my breaths are shaky as i'm trying to find air
i'm keeping my head down
but in your arms i know
you're smiling down at me, at this pain i'm enduring
and somehow i still love you enough to repeat the cycle
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this is a little old but i was just thinking about it cause idk why just cause i feel what i feel. anyways hope you enjoyyy or not.
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folie
Poetryjournal-like entries taken from my journal filled with poems and tales that might not make much sense to you. read if you don't mind it, though.