written on 12/17/20
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i can't keep holding on
my arms hurt so much
i try sending messages
to anyone around me
anyone that would listen
how is it no one sees me?
how can you not see me?
i stand right in front of you
and i am crying out for help
i am holding onto you so tightly
but you don't feel a thing?
please just drown me
i fear pain more than anything
but i feel it in every waking moment
so how bad could anything else be?
how much more can i endure
i ask you this everyday
and there is never an answer
i will beg and bleed for a response
i don't know how to get what i want
the mind inside my head does not agree
what it wants is to shut down, let go
the idea of finally finding peace is convincing
and i'm so tired of holding on, i just might let go
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i don't know what's going on with me today but i'm just really messed up. wrote this to ease my mind but it didn't really help. have a good night my loves.
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folie
Poetryjournal-like entries taken from my journal filled with poems and tales that might not make much sense to you. read if you don't mind it, though.