folie

ignorance is bliss

written on 4/14/21

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i never meant to influence you

in the ways i did

i've turned you into many

each version of you separate from the one i knew

every day i've woken up to the same familiar eyes

taking their place in a form i no longer recognize

i didn't mean to take you this far

and any time i apologize you can't accept

because you have no clue why i speak such things

every century for you is different

every morning with me is new

we've woken up with different ways to take each other in

you're unaware this love you have for me has been conditioned

but if i told you today you'd just forget tomorrow

so i don't say anything anymore

after trying to set you free for so long

i struggle to repeat the cycle

you may notice me straying away

although you'll never comprehend

you can see i'm getting tired

but i have to keep going

if i stop i'll never forgive the things i've put you through

i keep this burden to myself so you don't have to endure it

given the choice i'd rather struggle to keep you breathing

but one day when the light meets your eyes

you find your way back to me

you let me know you love me

though you don't understand why

you ask me to let you go

and as much as i love you, i just can't say no

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this kinda gives me wandavision vibes, i was a little inspired by it while writing so take what you will of this. i don't really know why i feel like this rn but it's like somber, basically the emotions portrayed in this poem. okay bye i love you hope you have a good day