folie

the red thread

written on 9/25/20

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there's haunting moments where i swear i see your soul

i always wanted to believe in the idea of soulmates

but i don't believe they could truly exist

how could i believe in such an ideal?

i desperately want to 

because everyone around me seems to have found theirs

they always tell me

"be patient, you just haven't found yours yet."

but i don't believe them

i fear I've already found them

but they already made their choice

that means they can't possibly be my other half,

how could someone meant to be my only counterpart

find a life with someone else?

i try not to torture myself by believing in fantasy

even though that's how i continue to breathe

day by day

when sunlight becomes painful

i disappear into my mind

with you

in these altered moments together there's no obstacles

we lose the morals we live by

because in the place we pretend is home

we've become the only things we live by

why set boundaries we'll be tempted to break?

i want to escape my mind with you

but i know the moment i do

we are no longer two halves of one whole

we will go back to the morals we live by

and introduce ourselves as strangers, again.      

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if you chose to read, thank you. it's something different i wanted to do and a new start if you will. goodnight my loves