written on 9/20/21
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i was pricked by a thorn
but i still grow roses
in hopes that i'll be more careful next time
maybe this time, it's on me
it's my fault the pleasant, delicate imagery lured you in
the sweetest aroma that brought you closer
making you give in, plucking only one, only once.
you gave in to me, but i pricked my finger
then it was just you watching me bleed
of course you tried to help
searching for anything to patch this up
the blood still trickles down my hand
settling into the creases of my palm
i hear you try to ease this newfound burden
yet it's barely above a whisper
you leave me to ponder in new self-reflection
i pluck the petals off, one by one
maybe as they fall they can tell me what i did
is there something i can do better?
the bleeding has stopped, all petals have fallen
i think it's time to try again, but not with roses
of course i will grow them still and fulfill their needs, but i know better than to get too close again
they will have me to care for them as long as i see fit,
but i have daffodil seeds in my pocket
for if the time comes to give myself what i need, i will be ready
until then, i still grow roses
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there's a bunch of symbolism in this, and metaphors and whatever else you can think or ponder. don't know if you'll truly know what this means, but maybe some of you, or just one of you. this is all a way to get out my frustration and everything that i feel in my life, sorry if that hurts but that's how it is. love you, i'm trying to keep going. goodnight
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folie
Poetryjournal-like entries taken from my journal filled with poems and tales that might not make much sense to you. read if you don't mind it, though.