haikyuu!! night writing collection [SFW]

touch starved s/o who flinches a lot

featuring: kageyama, kuroo, kenma, and akaashi

kageyama isn't very affectionate himself and is rather shy about touching others. while he appreciates that you're not very touchy with him, he still thinks about what it would be like to hold your hand.

he sees an subtle opportunity while you two are watching something on tv, sitting moderately close together. he can see your hand out of his periphery vision, placed beside you on the cushion of the couch. he second guesses himself several times before quickly placing his hand on top of yours, but your reaction is just as quick. you pull your hand away with a small gasp, leaning your body away with it.

he looks defeated "do you not want to hold hands?" you quickly reassure him saying that you want to, but you're just not used to that kind of thing. he nods, before saying he 'gets it' solemnly.

suddenly he feels warmth come over his hand, looking down to see yours inching over the top. you promise you'll work on it because you want to feel completely comfortable with him and him with you. it's not long before your head droops into his shoulder, and he smiles softly, an arm coming around you to pull more of your warmth into his side.

kuroo's hugs are arguably the best, but you can't help but flinch a bit when he first initiates them. and he can't help but notice that you do it every time.

"do my hugs scare you, kitten?"

you tell him that they startle you a bit at first, but you settle into it quickly and squeeze him tight. you promise him that you'll get better at it.

you try to initiate the affection whenever you can and kuroo can't complain. the fact that you're willing to go out of your comfort zone for him alone makes his heart race.

"you're so cute when you're all cuddly like this," he muses holding you tight to his chest after watching you crawl into his lap.

he notices you open up more and let him hold you. but his favorite is when he sees you've had not the best of days and could use some kuroo cuddles.

"c'mere," he gestures with an open arm and welcoming blanket. his heart flutters as you make your way into his arms, settling in your spot against his chest. "there you go." he strokes your head once you're all comfy, letting you know he's there when you want to talk.

kenma is also not super touchy, but still craves your attention.

"y/n, you're so jumpy," he remarks after attempting to give you head pats, from which you flinched away.

you apologize and he reassures you for his comment. "no, it's fine but. it just makes me worry sometimes."

it meant the world to you that he would open up about your behavior and only made you want to improve. you were just discouraged as to how you could get better at loving him.

"will...it help if i touch you more? well, not like that but like, give you hugs like this."

he pulls you closer to him, wrapping his arms around you with a hand rubbing your back soothingly. you tensed up at the pressure but soon let the warmth of his body draw you in, your head leaning onto his shoulder. he's very gentle and it makes you want more.

"is this okay?" he whispers.

you nod into his shoulder, your arms coming around to hold him close to you.

akaashi knew about your indifference to affection going into your relationship but it still worried him sometimes.

one time you were just talking to him and he thought you looked so cute, and he wanted you closer to him. but he hesitated at the thought of trying to hold you, and he decided to try something. he raised his hand and pressed it towards you, watching as you automatically leaned away from him, stopping in the middle of your sentence to question his actions. you held your arm close to your chest as you felt the warmth of his palm on your upper arm.

"are you okay?" his heart sinks at your reaction to his simple touch. "i know you don't love being touched but i can't help but wonder...am i not gentle enough?"

you frantically reassure him that you don't exactly know why you flinch and automatically lean away, but that you like him a lot and want to stop doing it. he grins at your response but is still hesitant.

"i don't want to force you..."

he's so sweet and cares about your boundaries but your desire to comfort him about it draws you in closer, pressing your face into his shoulder as your hands grip his shirt. you express how you want him to touch you so you can learn to how to love him better.

his arms bring you closer into a warm embrace, pressing a long kiss to your forehead. "you show me lots of love, in your own way, and that's enough for me."

"and i think you deserve all the love, my love."

originally posted 28 Jan 2021