Fix Me (Alternative ending)

Chapter 114

Triggers: Mentions of suicide and substance abuse, it's a short chapter, I apologise.

Kolninenine: England is strange yall, everyone's so sensitive and wtf is a shag??

Andy scoffs at the tweet. Part of him wants to reply with something purposefully bitchy but he knows he shouldn't, so he puts his phone down and reminds himself that they're only in town for one more day. The more pressing issue, however, is that his husband now believes he's ashamed of him, which simply is not further from the truth. The evening is the only time he has had this week to be far enough away from Kol that he doesn't seriously contemplate committing a crime.

This evening, alone in the house, he runs himself a bath and tries to let it soothe him. He sips a hot mug of tea and picks up his phone from the chair by the tub when he buzzes, surprised to see a message from Remington.

Still mad at you but you're not tryna OD or shit are you??

Andy smiles for a moment and another message pops up.

Cos if u are thinking about doing something I'm gonna come cuddle u.

What if I want a cuddle anyway?

He gets the eye-roll emoji as a response and shakes his head in mild amusement. At least the boy's talking to him without using a million exclamation marks and capital letters all over the place.

Andy: What if you're trying to OD? Can I come cuddle u?

Remington: I'm not trying to OD.

Andy: Can I come cuddle you?

Remington: Are you trying to OD?

Andy: Can I come cuddle you?

Remington: Are you trying to ID?
Remington: OD*

Andy: If I OD will you come cuddle me?

Remington: Are u that desperate for a ciddle?
Remington: Cuddle**

Andy: CIDDLE

Remington: go away

Andy: IT SOUNDS LIKE A SEX THING
Andy: WE SHOULD CIDDLE TONIGHT

Remington: I actually will OD if you don't stop
Remington: But yes it does sound like a sex thing

Andy: So
Andy: Cuddle?
Andy: Please?
Andy: Pretty please?
Andy: With a cherry on top?

Remington: Why would u wanna cuddle me if you said u had a wife?

Andy: I was trying to piss him off, I said this already.

Remington: Well you could have done that literally any other way
Remington: Rather than pretending I DON'T EXIST
Remington: Cos that's not nice and now I feel unwanted by the man who's supposed to always want me.

Andy: I didn't say you don't exist and I do want you
Andy: And I'm sorry for doing that, it was shitty, but I can't exactly time travel back and not do it.

Remington: How do I know you aint lying??

Andy: Because I promise I'm not

Remington: But how do I know you're not lying?

Andy: Well I'd say look into my eyes but considering u won't come give me a cuddle, that isn't possible.

Remington: Why are u like this
Remington: I just don't get why you'd even think of that? Like? 'oh yeah I wanna piss off this guy who I only have to see for one week I know I'll tell him I have a wife even though I'm gay what a great idea!' Like are you fucking high again or some crazy shit?

Andy: Really. You think I'd start taking that again?

Remington: Wouldn't put it past u.

Andy: Sorry, you're seriously saying you think I'm taking heroin behind your back again? And that's why I fucked up?

Remington: Well no offense but last time you took heroin you fucked up, so...
Remington: I aint seen anyone else try jabbing a needle into their partner's arm.
Remington: I'm just saying.
Remington: U did fucked things when you were taking it so I'm just being realistic.

Andy: I can't believe u think I'd take it again! I hated it! Do u think I liked it or something?
Andy: And no offense to u either but u do fucked things and you aint ever taken drugs, so what does that say about you if this is your logic?

Remington: Wow sorry I'm not perfect like you

Andy: This shouldn't be a big deal

Remington: Did u seriously just say that?
Remington: That's like the 373946th fucking time I've been told I'm making everything into a big deal. Wow, love you too mate, thanks so much x

Andy: This is ridiculous.

Remington: Night.