Lost

Chapter 16: Heart Attack

Luna P.O.V.

Aspen was walking away and all I could do was fall onto my knees, crying. There was a knot in my chest making it hard to breathe.

Why couldn't I keep someone I love close to me, I thought to myself, crying harder.

I was in a dark and cold forest by myself, crying like a little a 5 year old who just lost her favourite toy.

The knot got heavier and heavier.

"Why.......why couldn't I be good enough. Why can't I care about what Aspen wanted." I said out loud. I stopped crying. It wasn't going to do anything to help me.

I got up and wiped my tears away. I made a promise to myself when I was 7 that I wouldn't cry, that I wouldn't shed a tear for anyone.

I didn't know what to do or where to go. I couldn't go back to the cave because I don't even know if I can face Aspen or Rookie. If I started to walk around the forest I might run into Leon's twin brother which isn't good because he'll probably kill me or something close to that.

The only thing that I can do is sit here.

The knot in my chest wasn't going anyway. It was making it impossible to breathe now. I tried to take deep breaths but it only made things worse.

I felt like I was dying. I needed to breathe but I couldn't, it was hopeless. My eyelids started to get heavier and heavier with each passing second. I was giving in. I mean it would probably be the best for Aspen. If I was gone then maybe she could be happy. She wouldn't have to deal with me or my crappy personality.

I felt my whole body get heavy and I fell back. I knew that I was having a heart attack. I've had this type of thing ever since the first day my mom started to hit me.

The doctors told me not to give in if it started to stop me from breathing or else I'd die, but now I wanted to. I don't want to deal with this. I don't want to make my best friend's life ever harder. She also has a dad that doesn't give a single shit about her.

He barely ever pays attention to her, but I guess that's better than a parent that hits you all the time.

I was going to close my eyes fully when I heard someone calling my name.

"Luna!" yelled a familiar voice. I couldn't get up to see who it was. I couldn't move or do anything.

Then I saw Leon's face. He was saying something but I couldn't hear what. My eyes closed fully and then I couldn't feel anything at all.

"Luna! You need to open your eyes!" yelled Leon. I slowly opened my eyes, again to his voice.

"L-Leon?" I asked slowly regaining consciousness.

"Luna, thank god you're ok." he said.

"What even happened?" I asked.

"I don't know. I just found you lying on the ground. Then when I got here you closed your eyes." explained Leon.

Oh yeah, I had a heart attack, I thought.

I was getting up but then Leon stopped me.

"You should rest a bit." he suggested.

I nodded and just sat up.