Battle Of All [Engineer Series #1] SELF-PUBLISHED

32. Ge- Germanium

Dedicated to Shamaebaluyot

|Chapter 32|

"Chinlie Jane..." she called me the moment her eyes landed on mine. "How are you?" she asked me when I didn't respond on her.

"I'm fine. Ikaw dapat ang kinakamusta," wika ko sa kaniya. "Kakagising mo pa lang ba?"

Tingin pa lang sa kaniya alam ko'ng hindi pa bumabalik ang kaniyang lakas dahil sa mapupungay niyang mga mata. Balita ko ay malayo naman sa kalamanan ang tama niya noong araw na 'yon kaya madaling nakuha ang baril sa loob ng katawan niya.

And honeslty, I know I'm worried about her.

I still care for her despite of what she's done.

Tumango siya sa akin, naagaw ng pansin ko ang kamay niyang nakaposas sa higaan niya kaya inalis ko kaagad ang tingin ko doon.

"Why did you left me and give me to them? Bakit mo ako kinuhang myembro ng organisasyon niyo kung alam mong ilegal 'yon? Bakit kailangang 'yon ang maging trabaho niyo kung alam mong ilegal iyon? Bakit..." sunod-sunod kong tanong at hindi inaalalang kakagising niya pa lang galing sa matagal na pagkatulog.

I took a deep breath because my chest is pounding like I' m going to explode. Gusto ko malaman ang mga tanong na ilang araw ko ng gustong magkaroon ng sagot. And those questions can be only answered by her.

"Because I don't want you to get involve of my illegal job. Ayaw kong mapahamak ka kapag nagka-bulilyaso ang kompanya namin... A--and that time, I was still grieving of your legitimate Dad's death." saad niya kaya naman ay napailing ako sabay ng pagtulo ng luha ko.

"That's an invalid reason," I honestly told her.

"I know," aniya.

Tinikom ko ang aking kamay ng mahigpit kahit na masakit na sa aking kamay. I felt my nails are slowly hurting because of so much anger I felt inside. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko na mahigpit na nakatikom kaya napatingin ako doon.

Her touch is giving me warmth but the fact that she abandoned me is not acceptable.

"Kung alam mo naman pala bakit ipinagpatuloy mo pa? You should have closed your illegal company and live a new life when my true father died!" I stay calm but I still shouted the last three words.

"I know but I just can't," aniya kaya napailing ako.

Kung ayaw niyang mapahamak ako bakit hindi niya lang 'yon pinasara? She even involved innocent teenagers just to work for her and I was once one of them!

"I was planning to barn down my illegal company, an--.."

"Don't call me that," I furiously told her.

"I was planning... But the governor told to me to not to barn it down and he scared me that he will kill you." saad niya pero hindi ako nagsalita. "The day you have introduced to us, hindi iyon isang pagtatagpo lang na biglaan because I plan it all. I want to protect you by involving you in our illegal doings. Ramdam mo naman 'yon' di ba?"

"I know you have a good heart and I know you will not let us down by not telling it to the custody because you need money for your university. At alam rin 'yon nila Adriana, I told them that I will protect you and that's what I did, Chinlie Jane."

So, alam rin pala talaga alam nila Mama ang tungkol dito at ang pagsali ko sa kanila ilang taon ang nakakalipas. They had a lot a secret from me.

"Alam mo ba kung gaano kahirap sa isang ina na tingnan lang ang kaniyang anak na nahihirapan?" she asked me with teary eyes.