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Lee Jeno

{ Bipolar }

Hiii guys!

In that imagine I'm talking about Bipolar Disorder and it is a serious topic. I am in no way making fun of people suffering from it.

Like I said previously in an imagine, mental health is important and if you need to talk about it there's a lot of ressources in place to help you. You are not alone.

There are doctors and psychologist specialized in helping people, so it is okay to go and talk to them, I know it can be scary sometimes.

You are strong and will get through it! Have a nice day and remember; Mental health is important and we should not be scared to talk about it.

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Bipolar disorder: is a mental disorder characterized by periods of depression and periods of abnormally elevated mood that last from days to weeks each.

That was what was written on the bottle of your prescription that you had at the drogue store. You sighed. You should have never go see that psychologist. Now you have to take pills on a daily and you are not the happiest about that.

The bag with your pills in it was on the passenger sit while you were driving and you were trying to avoid it. You can't believe you fall that much, at a point where you have to take pills.

You shook your head and wanted to cry. You deeply breathe before resting all your attention on the road. You have to get back home the sonner possible, because you have a lot of work to finished. It seem to never end.

Your little garden with dahlias, roses and tulips was starting to grow and you could see it as you parked your car in the parking spot of your house.

You took your bag and the bag with the prescription, before getting your keys in the doorknob. It was unusually already unlocked and you were worried. Does someone broke into your house?

You started walking with precautions and your hands were placed in a way to be able to fight if someone get in your way. Your head was turning around to see if there was anyone. You start hearing a humming and you almost froze in place. Who can be here?

"Oh baby! You're finally home!" That was Jeno's voice coming from your back. As you turn around, you hide the prescription in your back to be sure Jeno don't see it. You never told him that you were going through things, never told him you were going to see a psychologist and never told him that she diagnosed you with a bipolar disorder.

You don't want him to find out like that, so you hide it under your hoodie and smiled to him as you turned around. "Oh it's you! I thought someone broke into the house." "You didn't see my car." He looked at you with misunderstanding eyes. "I probably didn't pay enough attention to what was around me."

He nodded and come closer to you. He kissed your cheeks and asked you where were you. You didn't know what to tell him. You can't say «Remember that time I lied to you saying I couldn't come to the studio because I had work? Yeah, well it was because I was going to see a psychologist and now I need pills.»

"I... I went see F/N!" "Oh, how is he going?"
"Well." He smiled and didn't doubt you a second. You feel bad lying to him about your health. But you don't want him to look at you and think that you are weak. You don't want him to change his view of you because of theses pills.

"What are you doing here?" You asked to change the subject from you. "Oh I wanted to come and spend time with you." His dimples showed and you blushed. "Thank you... but I have a lot of works to do... I don't know if it is the best moment..."

For a moment he looked sad, but then his face lighted up and looked at you. "Hum... go do your work right now and we will have more time together after! Tell me as soon as you finished."

You could not say no to him, so you agreed.
You immediately took the stairs and went to your room to work. There was music in your ear to not be disturb, and you worked. Worked for hours. How long? You don't really know but it took a long time. At the second you closed the final book, you ran downstairs to go see Jeno.

"Are you finish?" You nodded with excitement and he smiled too. "While you were working, I-" Something behind you dropped and you were asking yourself what was it until you remembered and your eyes got ten times bigger. Your medicaments.

"Oh, what is this?" Jeno kneeled down to grab the little bag and you tried to get it before him, but it was too late. "Pills? For you?" He looked back at too and then back at the bag, he was so confused... no no no, this is a nightmare... you probably fell asleep while working and now your brain is tricking you.

But since Jeno's face kept looking at you, waiting for answers, you knew it was not a bad dream. How can you tell him? "Are you sick?"
"Depends what sick means for you..." that didn't help him figure out.

"Open the bag and read..." you just hope you won't regret telling him. You sat on the couch while he started reading. Why you had to forget to take off the bag from your hoodie? You are mad at yourself first, and also mad at Jeno for finding out! His eyes were reading, lines by lines.

"I don't understand." He said after finishing. "I don't either." You laughed, not because it was funny, just because of the irony of the situation. It is true, you don't even understand what you have.

"Are you okay?" He was worried and you just wanted to hug him. "I guess so..." "How did you know you had this disorder?" You stared at your shoes and he walk to the couch.

"I went to see a psychologist, after the huge fight we had, because... it was not me. I was not like usual and I was feeling at my worst after. I consulted, just in case, because I was the problem. Then, the woman diagnosed me with Bipolar Disorder. I don't really know what is wrong with me, but I would understand if you feel uncomfortable or anything else." Jeno waited for you to finish. Like he wanted to absorb everything you said.

He said nothing, his arms just wrapped you and your head was on his chest. You were hearing his heart beating. A beautiful melody.
"Why you did not tell me?" You didn't wanted that question... "Because you already have your own problems and you have enough to deal with, I don't have to put more..."

"Baby don't say that. I would have like to be there with you to support you... how do you feel about it?" "I don't know... it is... weird?"
He nodded, not understanding completely, but trying to. "What does the psychologist said?"
"That it can happens that I have moments where I fell low and some that I fell extremely energetic, and I have pills to help me with it."'

You were telling him all of that when the only thing he wanted was to have time with you...
"What were you going to say before I accidentally dropped those?" You said while grabbing the bag. "I organized a date... but if you prefer staying home I understand."

He turned his head and smiled to you. "Do you know how much crazy in love I am with you?"
He stopped looking at you and blushed hard. You kept staring at him with a huge smile, you really love him, really, really.

"I would love to go on the date you organized."
"Really?" "Of course!" You pecked his lips and then ran away to tease him.

"Oh no you are coming back and giving me a proper kiss!" He got up and ran at you around all the house. He finally caught you and pecked your face a lot of times. You took his lips between yours to kiss him properly, like he asked for.

"Okay... let's go on a date now!" He took your hand and you went on a date with him! You are happy he took the news well, another proof that you believe he is your soulmate!

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