A home they say, it's where the heart is. But for me I don't know what a home is?. I think a place called home is where you live with your loving family. A home where you feel protected, safe and most of all the one place you always want to be.
A home I know is the orphanage I live at and a home I have always known. I don't know any other home besides this one. I've been living here my whole life. Mam mavis is a wonderful woman and she's our caretaker. Last year when I asked her about my parents she told me that I was left outside the orphanage gate with only a blanket and a birth certificate. They never saw who left me cause they heard a baby crying outside. I don't know who my parents are or why they decided to dump me here.
I'm grateful though that she didn't kill me or throw me in some bin somewhere. Living here is hard. It's not a place you can call home but hey what do I know what a home should be like?. This is a cold place and the woman who runs it with her husband are really cruel people who hate kids but still they chose to open a home for kids knowing very well they are not those kind of people and the social workers keep sendinh kids to come live here.
Sometimes I would lay awake at night and imagine how my mom looks and if she'll love me and my dad protect me and treat me like his little girl. I would imagine if I'm like my mom or dad and who did I take after?. have hair that is soft naturally but sometimes it can turn nappy and be a fro when it gets wet. I'm fair skinned and Zuki likes complain about pimples acne and what not, I have never had even a single pimple. I would thank my mom for that but hey I don't know her. I wonder if I'll ever find them?.
What if my mom hid the pregnancy from my dad and he doesn't know about my existence? And what if my dad told my mom to abort me and doesn't want anything to do with me?. What if my mom was a teenage mom and her parents forced her to give me up or my dad wanted nothing to with me and she had no help?. What if they both decided to just leave me here cause they didn't want me?.
I hope one day I'll have all the answers to the questions I have. I'm sitting in the play area and there's a library there and I'm studying. Zuki comes in and sits next to me.
The rest of the week follows just the same and final exams are about to start so that makes me really focused and study hard cause I just want to leave this place and never look back.
" I'm tired...we have been studying all day...let's take a break"
" yeah plus we about to have lunch" I'm hungry.
" when are you going to help mam mavis cook?....you know we love your cooking " she excitedly
" after were done with the exams."
" ok....so I was thinking neh" zuki and thinking is always something bad
'' no zuki....I dint want trouble '' I tell her
''please I need this favour from you and I promise I'll owe you a big one'' I'm not going to like this.
" ok. Out with it"
" well you know since were writing exams and in Tuesday were writing in the morning and we are going to have to catch a taxi to get here."
"just say zuki"
" well I was thinking like after writing we can go to max' s place. " ehh
" we?....what do you mean we?....angyini nawe lapho mina! ( I'm not going there with you) "
" but you can't come home without me. They'll ask questions and we'll both be in trouble "
" we'll be in trouble if we go there. If you go there and I'm not going khabo max nawe ( at Max's place with you.) . Sorry zuki so I can listen to you two sucking faces cha ngeke ( no ways) "
YOU ARE READING
BROKEN PIECES.
RomanceShe only knows one home that she has ever lived in and that is the orphanage. She has many questions about who she is and how did she end up there. She only knows that she was left with one thing only. life gets hard and brutal for her and she know...
