BROKEN PIECES.

CHAPTER 48 | Do I Scare You?

KWAME.

" Can you give us some space. I need to talk to her alone and take Kiki with you." Khensani and Majid nod.
" We didn't mean to upset you but I know that my brother has been looking for your family so when I saw you. I knew she is your mother." Amara nods.
" I understand. Thank you for this. It means a lot to me." She says and they get up. Khensani hugs her then they go to their bedroom. A while later they walk out the house with Kiki trailing behind them.
I shift on the couch and look at her. She hasn't moved since my brother told her about her mother. She shifts too and looks at me. How did I get so lucky with her. Her beautiful soul and kind forgiving heart. I live this woman and tthere' nothing I wouldn't her. She puts her thumb between her teeth as she's waiting for me to talk. Her face gets flushed like she's about to have a panic attack.
" Take a deep breath love. Yes...just like that. I've got you baby." I day soothing her back. She take deep breaths and seems to calm down.
What if I tell her everything that I have found out so far and she has a full blown panic attack?. What...No. She has to know. Amara has been through allot but she's still standing strong. I know it's going to hurt her but she deserves to know the truth. I can hide that from her no matter how hard I want to protect her.
" please tell me everything you have found out." her beautiful brown eyes pleads with me. She tucks her bottom lip between her teeth and keeps biting hard. I put the pad of my thumb and release her lip.
" That is what I wanted us to talk about."
" Tell me then she's getting impatient.
" like I said. Let's go to your apartment and we get breakfast on our way there so you wont have to cook. I need you full and relaxed when I tell you everything cause it is allot."
" well your brother did say kiki cooked. So we'll have breakfast while you tell me what I must know."
" Baby..."
" Stop stalling Kwame and start talking." Damn she's not having it.
" Lets go to the kit hen and dish up then."
She gets up first and I follow her. My eyes are on her legs and damn shirt dress she's wearing. All the blood runs to my cock when I think of the thing she's wearing. I wonder if she will ever let me fuck her from behind. But I doubt she would cause that would trigger her. I put my hand on her ass cheeks and she swats my hand away.
I sit down and watch her plate for us. This food looks good. I hope it tastes better than it looks. I watch her as she walks around the kitchen at ease and she pours juice for us. I can do this all day. Just sit and watch her. She looks at me and smiles. My heart literally skips a beat. I have never like this for anyone. No woman has ever made me feel like this in all my life. Amara brings out the best in me. The cave man in me. I just want to hide her from all the man cause I am sure I will lose my shit if any man looks at her the way I do.
Does she know what she does to me every time she's close to me. When she touches me and when she smiles at me. When I'm deep inside of her making love to her. Worship her body the way a man does to a woman he loves. She had undone me. She has imprinted her soul in mine. No woman could ever take her place in my heart. Ever. She's mine and mine alone.
" Your face is hard. What are you thinking?." She says standing next to me and palms my face in her soft hands that make me forget who I truly am. A killer. A Thief. A leader if one of the most feared gangs. A monster. Does she see the monster in me or she sees the knight in shining amour who came and rescued her from those people. Does she know when she left that house and came with me she left with a more dangerous person. Someone her brother would warn her to stay away from if he knew. Someone who'll be a nightmare to the if they tried to keep her away from me. She's my queen. Now sand forever.
" I'm not a nice person Amara. I'm cold, very ruthless and hardly cares about another person thinks. I don't give a fuck about that."
" You're not a cold person Kwame. You're loving and Kind. There are so many about you but cold isn't one of them."
I sit her on my lap cause I want to feel her reacting when I tell her about me. I want to see if she will still look at me, adoringly when intelligent her what I truly am. Who I really am. She drapes her arm on my shoulder and pecks my lips.
" The things you make me feel love scare me. Feelings are a dangerous thing for a man like me."
" What do you mean?" she asks me whispering. Her warm breath hits my face.
" Feelings in my line of business get you killed. Cause instead of thinking with your brain you'll start thinking with your heart and worry about another person. I never had that. I never had to worry about the consequences of my actions. I didn't care but when I first saw you. I knew I was fucked. Every time now when I do something I always have to make sure that you wont get hurt in any way. I have to keep you safe and protected and come home to you."
" What is your line of business exactly cause I thought you are an art dealer. You...."
" Yes love I am one. I run legitimate businesses and then I also run the not so legit businesses." Her brows furrow.
" What does that mean Kwame?." She quietly asks.
" It means I am a criminal. I do illegal stuff like steal priceless art pieces, money laundering, sell information and everything you can think of excluding selling women and children, drugs and those heists." Her body stills. She doesn't freeze but she stills.
" Do you kill people?."
" I am a thief cause I am good at it. I am a gang leader Amara. I responsible for a large number of men and women. All thieves in different things. As a gang leader sometimes you have to make decisions and sometimes those decisions mean that you have to kill someone. I have taken life not for fun Amara but because I had to. It's either them or me. It's either my business or then. No one will mess with my family, business and the ones I love. Especially you."
She looks deep in my arms and her breath hitches. Can she see the cold hearted ruthless man I am. A killer who kills without any conscious?. It's only her who sees me as this kind man. To everyone else I am their worst nightmare. A name they fear when it is mentioned. I didn't get where I am cause I was lucky or it was given to me. I worked hard to be where I am. Living a double life that my parents didn't know about.
" I kill people love without a conscious cause I don't think I have one. Would you still let me touch you with these hands knowing they have taken life?. Would you still look at me the same way you did before you found out I was a killer? Do you still love me knowing that I kill and will again?. Are you scared of me now love?."
Her eyes get teary and they stream down her face. I kiss her cheeks wiping her tears away. She hasn't moved or stormed out running. Why?. I thought she would have gotten off of me the moment I told her I was a killer?. Why is she still here on my lap looking at me?.
" Why are you telling me all of this?."
" Cause I don't want to have secrets with you. I love you too much to do that to you. I want you to know cause there will be days where I'll go missing and I don't want you to worry about me."
" How can I not worry about you?. I love you Kwame and I dint want you to die."
" No love I won't die."
" You don't know that. What if you go rondo one of your jobs and something happens to you? What then huh?. What if your enemies come after you and kill you? What's going to happen to me?"
" Nothing will ever happen to you nit as long as I am alive and even after that. My brothers will guard you with their lives until they take their last breath if God has decided to take me away from you. No one will get close or touch you love as long as I am un this world. I'll kill every one last of them before I let that happen. Anyone who tries to challenge me or think that they can come after me? They know that they are signing their death wish cause the only person coming alive is me. I am untouchable love. No one can touch you too as my queen."
" I'm scared Kwame."
I knew she would. Who would be scared after all of this?. I pull her to my chest and sooth her back. Her teary eyes are on my neck making my skin wet.
" I know this is difficult for you and it will take time getting used to it. I will give you that time and space so you can decide if you still want to be with me."
She shifts her head and looks at me. Her face is full of different emotions and I hate seeing her like this. Not when I promised her that she will only cry tears if joy but here I am. Making her cry. I hate it. I wish I didn't have to do it but I must.
" I don't want space away from you. How could you even think that."
" Cause most women will run away from you the moment they hear you are a killer."
" I am not most women Kwame. I love you. All that you are and who you are. I love you."
" This life is not easy love. My enemies will know about you and they will try to hurt me through you so I need you to be careful with whom you surround yourself with. You can just trust anyone."
" I know that." She says. I wipe her tears again and plant a kiss in her forehead and she huffs out.
" Are you sure this is the kind of life you want to live with me?"
" You make it sound as it it's going be horrible and scary. Like I'm going to be dodging bullets every day."
" Never. You know why?" she shakes her head. " cause there's no woman in this world who is safe like you. Even the president's daughter is not safe but you are. I want you to understand what you are signing up for love."
" well it's too late now Kwame cause I love you."
" I will make sure that I don't bring whatever I do outside home with me. You will always be protected and safe love. I promise you."
" I believe you." I see the truth in her eyes. She means it. " just promise me something?"
" Anything love."
" Promise me that you will always come home to me. If you can't you'll let me know so I wont get worried."
" I promise you love." She nods.
" Tell me about my family. My mother." I sigh.
I take the food and she shakes her head.
" A while ago then guys and I went to Secunda. At the orphanage you grew up in. I wanted to see what kind of place it is and also see the man who made your life difficult there. There were no pictures of you love. None and when asked them if these pictures are all of the children who live there and they said yes. It was very odd to me. We donated money and then left but we followed this woman. Mam Mavis."
" you talked to Mam Mavis?"
" I did and she told us many things."
" things like what?"
" She says that one day. Lizzy Dlamini came home with you. You weren't left outside the orphanage with your birth certificate. You don't exist in south Africa love."
" What do you mean I don't exist?."
" Jabu Ngema doesn't exist I south Africa."
" But then how did I get the birth certificate? My ID?"
" Lizzy is connected love but she wasn't doing this alone. Natasha knew who you were when she met you. Thato's mother too. They knew about you."
" Knew who I am? How?"
" I kidnapped Natasha. She's with us."
" What?"
" Yes. I also took their money. All of it."
" Kwame. Why did you take it cause it's not like you need it?."
" To teach them a lesson. I did warn Natasha that I am going to come after her if I find out she had anything to do with you."
" Tell me how do they all know about me."
" Natasha confirmed everything Mam Mavis said."
" What did she say Kwame" she yells getting off my lap.
" Your aunt is behind everything. She was jealous of your mother and the relationship she had with your father. She wanted your father for herself and she did for a while cause she got pregnant but miscarried the child."
" What but..."
I tell her everything. The same thing Mam Mavis told us that Natasha confirmed. What happened to her parents, how she ended up at the orphanage. About her mother ending up in that facility. Her family that is alive including and her aunt who is responsible for everything. I tell her about the videos of her we found in Natasha's house that she used to blackmail her aunt and Dlamini's daughter who lives with her aunt.
When I am done. She is still looking at me silently. I expected her to cry and scream but no. She's just looking at me and I think soaking everything in. She sits in front of me and heaves a deep sigh.
" So I always had a family but someone. My blood decided that I didn't deserve to have that because if the love my parents had for each other. Her own blood sister turned out lives upside down cause she couldn't stand that my father loved my mother more than anything?. She still goes to see them and look at them like she didn't do anything to them, to me?. What kind of person does that?."
" Jealousy love. It is a very dangerous disease."
" They think I am dead. Buried someone's child. That headstone has my name and surname. Who's child did my aunt bury?"
" I don't know love."
" When am I going to meet all of them?."
" As soon as I have your aunt cause if she finds out that her secret is out. We don't know what she might do so we need to be careful."
" I want to see my mother. I won't wait another day Kwame."
" I know my love. We are going to go and get your mother out if that pace tonight."
" How cause they'll tell my aunt."
" We are going to break her out if there. Kidnap her and bring her here. Home with you."
" you would really do that for me?." She asks me astonished.
" I thought you knew by now that there's nothing I wouldn't do for you love. Once your mother is safely home. We are going after your aunt. Lizzy and Thato's mother. I want your father to deal with them."
" Thank you Kwame. Thank you." She says sitting on my lap and holding me tight. I hug her tight.
" Do I look like them?" I smile.
" You do look like them."
" Seriously?"
" I'll never lie to you baby."
" Can you show me?"
I take out my phone and Google search Kader Hadid and the first article that pops is him sealing a 10 billion deal between Dubai and Russia. I go to images and show her the images. She takes the phone from me and looks at their pictures. One picture specifically where he was having dinner with his children. They were in Cape town all looking happy and laughing. She runs her hand on it and tears fall on the phone. I take it away from her and she breaks down. Literally breaks down and cries.
They are all going to pay especially Bongeka. I stand up with her and she wraps her legs around my waist. I walk us to our bedroom as she's crying hysterically. I comfort her. Promise her that this is the last time she's crying like this. I remind her that we know who she is right now and its going to be okay. She clings to be as she cries and my eyes get misty. Collen would be smiling right now if he saw me like this. I lay us on the bed with her and try to move her so she can be comfortable but she clings to me like a child.
Every tear she sheds is a knife for each of them. I am going to stab them or break a bone in their bodies. That is a promise. I lay her on top of me and pull a throw blanket on top of us and cover her legs in case anyone walks in. I let her hair loose so she wont have a headache and it covers my face. I gently move it away from my face and sooth her back until she stops crying and falls asleep. I take my phone and type the message to the guys to make sure everything is ready cause we are going to get her mother out of there.
My brother walks in and stands on the door looking at us.
" How is she?"
" Not good. I am worried about her state of mind. I think one of these days she's going to have a nervous breakdown and it scares the shit out of me."
" You do know that you have a real fight coming against you when they find out about her."
" I know Kader and Nasir are going to take her from me but I wont go down without a fight. I love her and I'll be damned if they think they an just take her from me. She's my queen."
" We won't let them take the Dons queens. Our queen." My brother promises and I know he means it. " what's the plan?"
" We are going to get her tonight. When she wakes up tomorrow morning. Her mother will be here."
" I'm coming with."
" Msizi will beef up security around the house. I need you to tell Khensani and kiki to stay home tomorrow until you leave."
" I've got you." He says.
" Thanks bro." he nods and leaves.
Amara sighs and stirs. She looks at me and I plant a kissing her lips.
" You're awake." I say.
" I am. Kwame?."
" Yes love.
" Promise me you won't let them take me away from you."
" Who will?"
" My father and brother. Promise me you won't let them."
" That will happen over my dead body." I kiss her forehead and sigh.
Said easier than done. Kader is not a man you piss off or say no to. I have his daughter in my arms right now and that alone is a crime. I am going to pay dearly. He wont care that I saved his child and wife. That's how cold the Godfather is but wont go down without a fight.