Mirror of Perfection (hisollumi story)

Chapter 33 - I love you for you

Hisokas Pov:

I'm sitting criss-cross on bed, wearing Illumi's dark green hoodie. I took it from him the day of our date. I desperately try to imprint his smell on my body. I miss him so much, he doesn't answer my texts and when I called him, I could hear his breathing but he never responded. I try not to cry thinking about him, but its pretty hard. Hes always on my mind. His hair, his smile, his laugh, his beautiful sparkling eyes. Everything about him.

I hear a knock at my front door, I uncross my legs and get up. I go downstairs and open it. Its Illumi! My body freezes. Tears run down my face ruining my makeup. I choke on my words. But I need him in my arms now, so I shake it off "Babs!" I pull him into a hug. I wrap my arms around him, I can feel how thin he is, but I don't care. I try to put my head over his shoulder where it usually goes, but realize something. "Are you taller then me?" I pull away. Hes still silent. I look at his shoes, demonias. Damn. Thats hot. This time he jumps onto me, wrapping his legs around my waist and his arms around my neck. "Take me to your room?" He whispers.

I hold him up by his thighs, and take him upstairs. I lay him down on my bed, and get on top of him. I noticed hes thin, however, not starved. His body is actually much like mine, the same muscular arms, thin waist and somewhat thick thighs. The next thing I notice about him, is that he has fluffy black and pink cat gloves on, and matching ears. I smirk "Cat boy" I whisper. He smirks. I kiss him, except he pushes back harder. He flips me over and puts his tongue into my mouth. I moan loudly, he enjoys this and pushes me down. He pulls away, tugging at my shirt "I want you" he whispers, but thats when I notice something is wrong.

He sits on top of me, and I sit up. He kisses me and tries to push me back down, saying "No no, I'm top." I'm slightly stronger then him and I don't let him. What is it? Why is he acting like this? He raises an eyebrow and says "Get back down" He tries to push me down again but I stay firmly upright, still lost in thought. He shoves his tongue into my mouth and cups my face with his hands. I almost fall into this kiss, but I get it now. I pull away and say "This isn't what I want."

He looks down, almost embarrassed by more sad. "Babs," I say tilting his chin up so he looks at me "You don't have to something you don't want to, especially when its not what I want." He sighs and says "I want you, to want me, and you want my body." I smile a little and let out a small laugh "I don't want you just for your body, I want all of you. I love you babs." I gently kiss him then pull away. He cuddles up next to me. "I'm sorry" I look at him and kiss his forhead, letting him know I forgive him except "I was never mad" I say, he smiles a little a closes his eyes.