F.A.M.E (book 1 & 2)

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Loool, soz guys, I accidentally posted the beginning of this chapter last night 😩😩😩 anyway, here it is! Enjoy. Ooo, and make sure you follow my business on insta: designedby_achiaa for all your bonnets. Thank you my loves ❤️

This morning Adonis had woken up around six in the morning and the sun was already up. Summer was definitely drawing to a close soon and he would definitely miss the warm mornings and the sound of the birds tweeting in the morning. He looked over to see the woman of his dreams still knocked out cold. Last night the reality hit him that maybe he needed her more than she needed him - and it was really flipping scary to think about.

As he stared at her, thoughts of Eros started dancing in his mind. If there was an afterlife where was he? Was his spirit wondering about right now? Was he resting peacefully? Did anything even happen? Yesterday had been so hectic that he barely thought of Eros. But today the memories and deep thoughts were hitting him like a truck. He needed to get some fresh air and breathe.

He hopped out of bed and walked into the bathroom before completing his business in there. Once he was finished he came back into his room and grabbed some long shorts and a T-shirt from his closet.

He went downstairs, made himself a mug of coffee then went upstairs to the back of the house and opened the doors to his balcony. Maybe the soft wind would blow away all his thoughts. He would've given anything to be at peace right now, but he wasn't. No matter how hard he tried to be okay he just wasn't. The pain was still in his heart and it ached even more when he didn't receive a call from Eros yesterday during the small party. They usually always got on a call on Fridays, if not, then Wednesday. It was so crazy to think that his last call with him was before he flew out to Portugal; after that country, his life had changed drastically.

Today he needed to call his mum and find out if she was able to get that preacher man for Eros' service. Everything was pretty much sorted for his send off, all he had to do was buy a suit for Eros and that would be it. The last thing to was show up.

Going into his notes, he decided to write the interlude to the short album he was starting to put together. He wanted the first track to be a letter to his brother, and he had already decided on a name for the album. E's little brother was the name he had in mind and unless he found a better name, that was what he was going for.

Yo bro, rest in peace innit.
It's been rough around here.
Shits been so crazy I haven't even been able to see clear.
My hearts been so broken with thoughts and memories of our childhood.
I feel like shit would've been different if you wrote me a handbook on how to deal with this.
I wish you coached me, prepared me for this sort of shit, cuz if it weren't for my girl, On my life I would be drinking to make sure my minds good.

I've been angry bro.
Emotionally disturbed to the point that someone's mother could've lost their kid.
Real talk I can't say anything about the shit I nearly did
Cuz Lord knows I'd be on my knees begging for forgiveness everyday for my sins

Still I'm not satisfied though.
Cuz when I get to smoking and I get to writing with my red eyes,
I find myself wondering what I'm really supposed to do.
Cuz when the pain won't go away and all I hear is your voice in my head
Every second I don't do shit it makes me feel like you get more dead

Mums been doing better than me though.
She still gets up early to clean in a hurry as if her time feels borrowed.
I swear I ain't seen that woman shed a tear since she broke down
I just hope she keeps wearing her crown and that her heart doesn't become a ghost town