F.A.M.E (book 1 & 2)

25

Hazel

It was eleven in the morning when I popped my eyes open and saw that Adonis wasn't next to me.

I wasn't really sure how I was expecting last night's conversation to go, but I was more than pleased with how Adonis dealt with it and answered me. It made me realise I wasn't lacking anything, and I was just overthinking everything - maybe because my job was social media and everyone on socials looked a certain type of way. It made me grateful that there were still some influencers who embraced their bodies, like Nella Rose - even though we had completely different bodies.

I reached for my phone which was underneath my pillow, switched it on, and automatically found myself squinting at the brightness of the screen. It was almost like I knew there was going to be something about me on one of these blog pages. The last couple of months, I felt like my life had been under a microscope. People were looking for every possible thing to critique about me. The worst thing about these blogs was that before anyone saw me with Adonis, whenever they posted me, it was for something good. These days it seemed like they only posted me whenever Jade was bashing me or if it had something to do with my relationship. I honestly never intended for my relationship to be public, and if it wasn't for Adonis going on live and screaming to the world that I'm his 'wife', we would be in a very different situation.

As expected, my face was cropped in a circle, as was Don's, as the shadeborough narrated everything from Jade's video to Don's live from Instagram last night.

I was almost ninety percent sure that Jade actually had something wrong with her. It was either that, or she was just a pest. How do you start beefing a man because he won't sleep with you? And how do you start beefing a fellow influencer because she's with the guy who refuses to give you D? It must be crack that she's smoking, because there's nothing that explains her behaviour.

People were in the comments going crazy, like always. Some people were in support of Jade, but the majority of people were backing both me and Adonis. Apparently I wasn't the only person who thought she had something wrong with her. I was even more glad when people started pointing out the fact that she's a pathological liar and that she was forcing herself to cry in her video.

I didn't want to stay in bed much longer because I had videos to edit and emails to get back to. I also had to get on some zoom meetings with my team and talk about my business and some other brand deals they wanted me to work on. I hadn't been taking any jobs for a while, but my management were starting to apply pressure because we were in autumn heading for winter. Plenty of jobs were on the way.

Stepping out of bed, I slipped on my robe, made the bed, then dragged my feet over to the bathroom where I yawned into my palm. How was I still tired after just waking up?

My reflection in the mirror made me smirk. My hair had grown out a bit, and this was usually the length at which I would get it cut again, but I was feeling to try something new. I was feeling the idea of getting braids done, especially for the trip I was planning for Don's birthday. He was about to have the warmest October ever!

About forty minutes later I was strolling downstairs to look for Don, when I heard 'fuck my opps
And fuck all your plots!
Got more beef with bitches who want D
But can't get none!
You Niggas are on me like you want D
You can't get none
Talking bad like you're gonna do me something
Rude boy, lemme tell you something -'
This was all I heard before I started laughing whilst making my way to the studio. I'm never sending Adonis an emotional voice note before I end up as the interlude to one of his songs.