The Story Of Us

Alex? Who's Alex?

As another week ended I noticed that Mitch began to forget little things. Things like when to eat or when to take pills or what our cats name was. Ok that wasn't a little thing but I had to ignore it. It was when we were sat eating food I got worried.

Alex walked in with a bag full of shopping. Mitch's eyes went wide and he pushed back from the table. Alex gave him a funny look and stepped forward to talk to us but Mitch pushed back again. "Scott, who is that?" He asked, pressing into my side.

I looked down at him and then up at Alex. Had someone walked in with him? There was no one else here. "Mitch, that's Alex. We live with him. Do you really not know who that is?" I asked.

"Alex? Who's Alex? Why's he in our house?" Mitch began to get flustered. He pushed his chair behind my back and peaked around me to look at Alex. Alex frowned.

"Mitch, it's me. It's ok, I won't hurt you. Don't worry. I'm your friend." Alex reassured him. He stepped forward to try and see Mitch's face. Mitch was like a puppy. How could he not remember Alex? We had known him for three years now.

"Alex? Alex. Oh Alex! I know you!" Mitch said excitedly. He clapped his hands and pushed his chair back forward, resuming the eating of his food. Just like nothing had happened.

Alex looked at me. The confused look on his face was exactly how I felt on the inside although my confusion was mixed with worry. If it happened again I was going to call the doctor but today wasn't the day......

Mitch turned his head towards me and smiled, chewing on a lettuce leaf. He looked so sweat and innocent. Like nothing had happened. Weird I know, but I was getting used to his little moments. Moments where he'd forget things or where he was so sick he couldn't move.

"We should go out." Mitch suggested as he took his empty plate and put it in the sink. Alex shook his head and began to make himself lunch.

"Ok, where?" I asked as I put my plate in the dishwasher. As I turned around I saw his face screw up. He took a second and then smiled. He was choosing to hide his pain which scared me. I didn't know when he was hurting now. Only if he woke up sick and vomiting. That was the only time he would let slip that he wasn't ok. The rest of the time he held his head up and sat through it. That was the most worrying thing of all.

"The park. Let's go for a walk." He said. I nodded and began to make a cup of coffee. Mitch looked at me quizzically. "Now." He rolled his eyes and smirked at me.

"Oh right. See you later, Alex." I said as we began to walk out of the house. Well Mitch wheeled himself. We went down in the elevator and turned left on the road.

"What happened back there?" I asked as we turned onto the park. Mitch looked up at me and frowned.

"Back where? I don't know what you are talking about." He said. I slowly came to a stop down by the oak tree that we had sat under when I had told him about Iceland. I helped him out of his chair and sat him down on the grass. I sat down next to him and let out a long breath.

"You didn't know who Alex was." I whispered. My eyes scanned across the park watching some kids play on the swing set. I felt Mitch's hand link into mine.

"I can't help it..." He began.

"I know you can't help it, Mitch. It's just... What happens...... What happens if one day- one day you forget me? What happens when you wake up and don't have a clue who I am?" I asked. I couldn't fixate my eyes on him so I kept them looking forward.

"I'll die before I forget who you are." He said trying to get my attention.

"Don't say that." I cut him off. I was angry and scared and tired and on edge. I didn't want to make him feel bad though.

"Scott, I'm sorry." He whispered. I could feel his eyes on me but I didn't have the strength to look back. I knew I'd break down into tears and I hadn't done that in front of him since the doctors told us about the cancer in the first place.

"Scott, please look at me." Mitch pleaded. He moved his hand up to my cheek and turned my head to face him. I couldn't meet his eyes though. I concentrated on his forehead hoping that it would look as though I was looking him in the eye.

"I love you. Please look me in the eye, Scott. Please." He pleaded again but I couldn't.

"I can't. I'll break down. I'm trying to be strong but when I look you in the eyes I always break down. On the inside at least. Because I know that one day and that day is close I won't be able to look you in the eyes anymore. I won't be able to see you or touch you. You'll be gone. Gone forever. And don't.... Please don't give me that I'll be in your heart crap. Because no, it's not like that. I love you so so much and it kills me to know that your life is coming to an end." My voice got progressively softer.

I heard a soft whimper come from Mitch's mouth. That's when I dared. I dared to look down. To look him in the eyes. And I knew it would happen. I felt my heart shatter. His eyes had tear in them. I had put them there. Idiot! I'm so stupid! I shouldn't have opened my big mouth!

I moved my thumb to his cheek and wiped away a stray tear. "I'm sorry. I am really sorry." I said.

"It's okay. You're only speaking the truth." He said smiling through his tears.

"I love you, Mitch Grassi. I love you more than the stars and the moon. I love you more than anything in the world. You are my world. You are my everything. You're beautiful. You're more beautiful than the flowers in a meadow. You are the best friend any one could ever ask for. You are my soulmate and the one I want to be with forever. Unfortunately that isn't possible. But I will savour every moment I get with you until you die because I am in love with you."

I was cut off by a pair of lips on mine. I melted into his touch, letting all my feelings overcome me. I could taste a light salty liquid on both of our lips but couldn't tell whether they were his tears or mine. I ravished in this moment because it felt so good. I could live in that moment forever.

A/N
Bit of a weird chapter. It's getting hard to write this without making myself cry so.... Yeah sorry. Hope you liked anyway.

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