𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐙𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐊𝐒; 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

lost my mind

ships -donnaeric (donna pinciotti & eric forman)

fandoms - that 70s show

warnings - mentions of sex, internalised biphobia, coming to terms w/sexuality

"sex in they city probably feels really really nice with hands placed on faces and twinkles in their eyes sex in the city probably looks really really great with a girl that's a ten and a guy that's 'bout an eight"

"maybe sex just isn't your thing eric"
maybe it wasn't.
after his and donnas first time.. he comes to terms with things he should have a long time ago
asexual eric (:

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eric was confused.. actually, he was really really confused, he didn't know how to deal with it.

he and donna had sex for the very first time that night of donnas parents rewedding, eric thought that night was going to be the best night for him, the night he became a man.

but that really wasn't the case, he had thought the sex was good, well sorta.. when he found out that donna didn't like it as much as she said she did.. he realised he didn't either.

he thought sex was supposed to be this amazing thing, this thing that was supposed to bring him pleasure when it didn't not to him at least.. maybe it was a one-night thing, and he'd be in to it the next day, but that's not how things work, everything has to be complicated for eric.

it has already taken him a long damn time to come to terms that maybe he didn't just like girls ever since that night with buddy morgan- he's realised over time that boys were attractive to him as well instead of just girls. but now, for him not wanting to have sex again? it was weird.

sure he'd love to be in a relationship, he'd love to be with a person he loved and who loved him back, but to be in a relationship do you and your significant other really need to have sex ? isn't casual non-sexual intimacy enough?

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donna wanted to try again, try and make it better. eric didn't, but he didn't know how to tell her that he didn't want to hurt the girl, but maybe she'd understand.

eric and donna sat side by side on his twin-sized bed, sitting in nothing but silence and a thick tension in the air that seemed to take the breath out of eric's lungs. he really didn't know how to tell donna what he was gonna tell her.

"donna" eric said softly looking anywhere but to the girl by his side.

"yeah eric"

"do we-" he paused a moment trying to go over what he was gonna say he looked to donna and frowned "i- i don't want to try again.. sex i mean.."

"what do you mean?" she asked

"i don't want to have sex again," he told donna firmly

"is it because of me"

eric looked at her quickly and shook his head as he dismissively waved his hands "no! no of course not! it's just i don't think i'm really into the whole sex thing with anyone.."

"what's that mean eric?" she asked him softly.

eric shrugged his shoulders, he really didn't know it was all still confusing to him, but he knew what he did and didn't want.

"i don't know don, i really don't- i.. i just really don't like the whole idea of sex with anyone- it.. makes me all uncomfortable ya know? i know i sound like a freak for not wanting any- but-"

he was cut off by donna kissing him softly "you're not a freak eric" she said her voice barely above a whisper taking both of eric's hands into her own.

eric looked to their hands then back to donna smiling weakly "are you sure don?"

she smiles and nods "yeah of course babe, i won't force you into anything you don't want or something that makes you uncomfortable, as long as we're together that's all i care about"

eric felt like crying, he really might have, he didn't think donna would understand him, he was
afraid she would have laughed at him and told him he was fucking crazy, but she didn't she understood him and even reassured him.

he hugs donna close to himself burying his face in her shoulder, she hugged him back rubbing circles into her boyfriend's back.

eric pulled away looking into donnas eyes, "don't tell the guys about this.. especially jackie okay? i don't want to deal with their bullshit"

donna nods reassuringly "okay, i won't tell em.. especially jackie.. i promise"

eric grins and kisses donna, as he pulled away he hugged her again and whispered a small "thank you"

donna rolls her eyes smiling as she hugged the boy back "no problem forman"

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ooo did i just vent (kinda) through eric, about being ace? haha yeah

anyway this was shitty but whatever

-mac