𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐙𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐊𝐒; 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

kiss me son of god

ships - eli sunday & william bandy

fandoms - there will be blood

warnings - angst, religious guilt, internalised homophobia, first time, loss of virginity, pwp, porn with feelings

"i want to make you feel like the
only person in the world eli"

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in hollywood a lot about eli changed.. he became more open, more free he was finally able to be who he wanted to be still within limits but he still got to be himself, authentically and freely eli, something it seems he could never have in little boston and it was all thanks to william.. his william, his beautiful, loving, intelligent william.

eli had started preaching on the radio just as william told him he could, still being able to spread the word of god about the sins of man and how to get salvation without standing in front of people with their judging eyes burning into him as they somehow knew that eli is blasphemous and that he hasn't prayed for the forgiveness for his acts of sin, he didn't seem he needed to because what he and william had didn't seem sinful even though people.. his father have always told him that homosexuality was an awful sin surly to get you eternal damnation but he didn't believe what he and william are could be something so awful.. they cared about each other.. loved each other.. that shouldn't be a sin.. but the thought of it all still itched at elis brain.

but now eli could be whoever.. whatever he wanted to be here without the fears of repercussion from his father.. the people of his church back in little boston who always seemed to have it out for him he didn't have to worry about any of that anymore all thanks to william.

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later that evening eli was home at their apartment alone, waiting on william to arrive back home, and when william does come through the door he was beaming with pure joy like he was full of light and eli noticed immediately.

william without even thinking about it went up to eli and pulled the other man into a kiss, eli is caught off guard by this but he slowly relaxes into it and kisses him
back.

when william pulls away he's grinning wide and eli just smiles back at him, just love seeing him like this,

"what are you so excited for?" eli asked him

william pecks his lips once more, "i got a part.. it's a small one, but it's still a part it's still something"

eli makes a happy sound, so glad that his boyfriend? are they boyfriends?.. it didn't matter he's just happy for his william finally getting out there, "i am so happy for you will we must celebrate! i can- i can cook for us i can-"

he's cut off by another kiss forceful and hungry this time, then williams mouth is kissing at his jaw than his throat, as eli lets out little gasps, "can we celebrate some way else eli?"

eli was at a loss for words, of course, he knew what william was referring to he wasn't stupid but he and eli never even brought it up before, of course, he's thought about.. so many times when he was alone.. yeah he's thought about, but the actual thing- him and william actually committing the act.. he didn't know how to feel about it- he wanted it so bad, he wanted nothing more than to let eli have him body and soul, but somewhere deep down in the pit of his gut it still felt wrong, it was telling him he was wrong for wanting something so... sinful.