𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐙𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐊𝐒; 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

the greatest films of all time were never made

ships - eli sunday / william bandy

fanomds - there will be blood

warnings - angst, internalised homophobia, religious guilt (sorta)

"come with me"
"what?"
"i want you to come with me eli"

william bandy wants to go to hollywood

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they sat at the front pew of the church, somewhere quiet, somewhere eli knew they wouldn't get interrupted at, somewhere he and william could just talk.

william bandy had just got back from a trip from
hollywood and he wanted to tell eli all about it, and here eli was willing and ready to listen to whatever william wanted to give him, it's all he ever wanted to do now a days.

"so, how was it?" eli asked him

"oh! it was amazing really really amazing" william said excitedly "it may have been one of the greatest times of my life! i'm surprised i came back... but i had... wanted to tell you about it"

"you could've written me" eli frowns, "i don't want to keep you from where you want to be william" he really didn't even if it hurt him that william would be gone and he'd be stuck here alone again with nobody but himself so be it he'll learn to manage like he's done countless times before, he just wants what's best for his friend whatever makes him happy and if that means william leaving to go and fulfill his dreams by going to hollywood eli would accept that.

william shakes his head, "no, i couldn't have wrote you.. it- it had to be in person i had to tell you in person, because i also have something very important to ask of you, and it may change what's between us, and i'm so deeply sorry if it does but i just have to ask"

oh is all eli thinks, he doesn't know how to prepare himself for this not knowing what to expect from william, he knows the man would never hurt him like others have because he feels william genuinely cares about him but still he can't stop the thoughts from drowning and overflowing his mind.

"of course.. what was it that you wanted to ask?"

william takes a deep breath looking anywhere but at eli "i want you to come down there with me.." then he's looking at eli with soft pleading eyes "come with me" he asks once more.

did eli hear him right? did william ask eli- eli of all people to come with him, to move away with him? eli didn't know what to say, he didn't even know if that's what the other man had even said.

"what?" eli decides with asking

"i want you to come with me eli"

so eli did hear him right.. but he still couldn't comprehend why in the world why- why william would ever ask eli of all people to leave with him, because eli is well eli is eli no one ever wanted him he knew that so how is this any different, how is william any different. eli shakes his head wanting the thoughts out, knowing thinking like this was stupid because he knows william is different he's like nobody else he's special, he's everything eli wants and eli knows with his whole being that william wouldn't lie about this wouldn't hurt him in a way like this.

eli he hears williams voice, then he's out of his head and back into reality looking into williams eyes who was looking back at him with such concern and softness something eli has never seen before the look alone could make him cry.

"eli" william says again, and eli can't get enough of it the way william says his name with such love and adornment a way eli always wants to hear it.

"yes?" eli finally answers the other man

"will you come with me?" he asked again something pleading in his voice, and that breaks something in eli, of course, he will, of course, he wants to go with william he'd follow him to the ends of the earth, to hell and back if he could but what about the church the only here that's really his what about the people who come to him every day- what would god himself think about this two men running away together to live with one another-

"i- william.." eli says looking away afraid to look the other in the ways still thinking this could end up a joke "of course i do will- you know i do.. but what about this" he gestured his hand to the church "what- what about-" then william has either side of elis face holding it gently between his hands.

"eli.. there are so many other things out there for you so much more than just this, and- and hell you can even start preaching on the radio if you wanted i'm sure they got that up there.. all i'm saying is you eli sunday deserve more than this, more than what you've ever got, and i want to give that to you.. let me give that to you"

the tears eli has been trying to hold back are following freely now, just because of williams words, because this is genuine, william really does want eli- wants to give eli everything in the world he deserves that eli doesn't believe he does, william in general just being here- being with him.

eli wraps his arms around williams waist and brutus his face into his shoulder, william cradles his head there and just lets him cry shushing him quietly trying to calm eli, and it seems to work as he's rising back up wiping his tear-stained face with the back of his hand and he's looking at william with a tiny smile.

"i'm sorry i'm such a crybaby" eli laughs softly

william shakes his head dismissing him, "it's okay.. and eli what i said about about wanting to give everything you don't have but deserve.. i wasn't lying i want to.. i really do, because i-
i care about you.. and i think- eli i think i have feelings for you.."

elis breath hitches in his throat.. william has feelings.. for him? this can't be happening it can't be real, no way this man he feels so strongly about this man he cares so much for even though he shouldn't, even though he knows it's bad feels the same way he does..

"you- you what?" eli asked him

"i- i think i have feelings for you eli- i think i sorta always have.. is that awful.. i'm sorry-"

"no," eli tells him shaking his head "it's not awful.. at least to me it's not awful.. because i feel the same way.."

"eli... can i kiss you?"

eli feels his face heat up, and nods his head not sure if he could speak.

then william was holding his face again and his lips were on elis they were soft and moved with elis like they were meant to william was more experienced with this then eli was so he guided him through it moving their lips in sync with each others williams hands still holding onto elis face and eli couldn't ask for anything more.

then it was over as quick as it started and eli frowns missing the feeling, one of williams face still held on to elis face and the other was now interlocked with his own.

"will you come with me?" he asked one last time

eli nods his head, "yes, of course, i will"

he'd go with william wherever he wanted to, he'd follow him anywhere just to be with him, to holllywood, to hell, to the ends of the earth, eli would follow.

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ahhh more twbb but something that literally doesn't hurt eli.. someone to make eli feel like the only person ever someone to make him feel loved.

anyway hope this was okay :)