𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐙𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐊𝐒; 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

to love you is to lose you

ships - pilph (piggy & ralph)

fandoms - lord of the flies (william golding)

warnings - canon character death, angst, hurt absolutely no comfort, honestly poor ralph

"breakin' down coming undone it's a roller coaster kinda rush and i never knew i could feel that much and that's the way i love you"

ralph loses a part of himself after piggy dies

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ralph just stared, stared at the limp and lifeless body of what once to be his best friend.. maybe his only real friend that was on the island.

he just stared at piggys body, he wanted to yell and scream at jack at how fucking stupid he was, but he couldn't bring himself to, his voice left him, no matter how much he wanted to yell, he could only let out little pants of air.

he got closer to piggy, and lent down beside him, he wanted to cry he wanted to break down but he couldn't bring himself to, not in front of the other boys, the other boys when had done this and did nothing to stop it.

piggys body lay there, his face covered in his blood, and sand stuck to his body, he hovered over piggy as he puts his hand on his neck, maybe trying to feel some sort of life- even though he knew it wouldn't be there. he watched as liquid hit his face something like rain until he realised he had finally started to cry, being this close to the boy must have done something to him or it was being close to an actual dead body, he didn't know.

"fuck" ralph murmured "god not you too... god piggy not you too" he whispered as he looked up to jack who just looked at him, with nothingness in his eyes, like he didn't just have piggy killed.. like it didn't happen with simon just a couple of days ago.

being on this damned island has turned them.. has turned jack into monsters.. or even more so.. being so isolated for so long with the same people could do that.

jack furrowed his brows as if in thought as he looked to the other boy who still remained on the ground.

"jack.." ralph said, "what the fuck did you do?"

jack didn't answer, he just looked from ralph to piggy then back to ralph.

ralph felt the tears in his eyes become prominent again, he couldn't do this.. not right now at least, not in front of these boys who had so easily turned.. not in front of jack.

he's going to have to get out of there soon, or he's gonna end up like his dead friend who lay just beneath him, he didn't want to leave piggy though, not here not with them. he's going to have to though, he'd eventually come back for piggy.. he'd do something for him, have a funeral or whatever even though he'd the only one to care, that was to be expected though he was the only one to ever actually gave a shit about piggy.

ralph looked to piggy once more, putting his hand back on to piggys neck lightly squeezing as he lays his head on piggys shoulder whispering that 'he'll be back.. he'll come back he promises' he didn't even know why he was even telling piggy this, it was probably to ease himself.

with one last small squeeze of piggys neck, ralph stood up, as he looked at jack, an envy burning inside him, he wished he didn't care this much, but he did.

with nothing to be said, or anymore looks to be exchanged ralph frowns as he looks to jack then back to piggy then to jack again, he turns and makes his way back to his side of the beach.

he was now completely and utterly alone, no more simon, no more piggy.. it was just him.. no matter how much other boys were still on this island, ralph reminded alone, and isolate inside his mind, confined to this damned side of the beach.

he didn't know what to do anymore, his best friends are dead- they were killed by their own- and ralph didn't do anything to stop it.. to stop them.

there was no more control.. even though there was hardly to even begin with- everything now though was complete and utter chaos.

and ralph just had to deal.. deal with it until they either get rescued.. or they end up killing each other.

one was bound to happen eventually.

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((: this isn't very good but hey i tried i guess

anyway i actually care about these dumb ass boys a lot

- mac