𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐙𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐊𝐒; 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

his

ships - natsby (nick carraway & jay gatsby)

fandoms - the great gatsby (2013), great gatsby (novel)

warnings - angst, unrequited love (not really unrequited)

"i am his, and he is mine"

kind of a drabble that i don't wanna finish or add to
anyway (:

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nick looks at him with a soft smile, as gatsby holds the side of his face, he leans more into his touch, as he feels his eyes welling up, at the sheer intimacy of the gesture.

jay frowns at the other man, concern lacing his features. "nick, dear.. are you alright?" he says as he moves his hand from nicks face to his neck.

nick nods his head, unable to speak feeling his words getting choked up in his throat, he feels the tears start to fall.

"nick, you're crying are you sure you're okay?" the concern still visible in his voice.

nick just nods his head again, bringing the golden man closer to him, gatsby just wrapped his arms across nicks frame, nick lays his head on jay's shoulder and cries softly holding tightly to the man's jacket afraid to let go.

jay just lets him cry, holding him close as he rubbed soothing circles into the others' back.

nick lets out a muffled "i'm sorry jay.."

jay takes one of his hands and moves it to nicks face, and moves it so nick was looking at him.

"what are you sorry for?"

nick shakes his head, and chuckles "for crying like a baby, just cause of your touch against my face" he lets out a choked laugh as his words get choked up again.

he was barely unable to find his words, except for when he was with jay. jay made him forget the simplest of things, he could write an entire novel of this golden man, and still not find his words to explain how much he adored this perfectly imperfect man..

jay brings his other hand to nick's face and looks into his eyes, he leans down bringing their faces closer. nick closes his eyes as he feels gatsby's lips against his own.

jay pulls away and leans his head against nicks, nick opens his watery eyes and looks into jays soft blue ones, he smiles at the other man, as he brings his hand to jay's face and holds it there for a moment. his hand goes from his face to his neck he pulls jay closer to him and pecks his lips once more.

he pulls away and hugs jay closer to him, as he laid his head back onto his shoulder, and lets out a quiet "i love you"

nick feels jay nod, and hug him tighter as he pulls him as close as he could, he didn't say anything though, just held nick.

nick just balls his hands into fists gripping onto jays suit jacket. his emotions getting the better of him, he knew he shouldn't have told gatsby how he felt he just couldn't hold it inside anymore he had to tell him, even though he knew gatsby didn't feel the same. gatsby could give him everything he had and more, just not what nick wanted most.. yes, he knew gatsby cared for him and loved him even if it was just a little, but what he felt for gatsby, gatsby only felt that way for daisy even if she was long gone her mind made up as she retreated into her money, daisy has his heart, and always will..

that was okay though, nick didn't mind, he knew his feelings, he knew he had gatsby, and gatsby had him.. he was gatsby's and gatsby was his..

as long as nick always had what they have right now at this moment. he doesn't need jay to say those words back to him, he'd be okay.

so he just holds onto jay, his head on his shoulder. as he feels jays head softly laid on top of his own, and the soothing circles jay left on his back.

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here's the stupid thing i asked about yesterday
it's alright i guess

-mac