I Found You

Chapter 46

Jahseh P.O.V

Its been 8 weeks since my bestfriend died. I've been trying to keep my self busy with my album but everytime I get in the studio I just see her laying there in the hospital bed lifeless and blue. I've been staying at Y/n's house since we came from the hospital. I haven't been able to step a foot into my apartment without breaking down.

Y/n has been slowly progressing. She doesn't cry as much as she did a week ago. She has been spending a lot of time with that doctor. Right now me and Alexus was in the studio basement.

Alexus was on her phone while I was sitting at the soundboard.

I turned around to look at Alexus.

"You still sing right?" I asked as a idea came to me.

"Who me?" She asked looking up from her phone.

"Yes who else would I be talking to." I said looking at her before turning around. I wrote something down and turned back around.

"Yeah but not as much why?" I handed her what I wrote and told her to get in the booth.

She looked at me weird and went into the booth. She sat down and held one headphone to her ear.

"I want to sing what's on the paper." She nodded her head as I pressed play.  She sung what was on the paper.

"Was that good?" She asked I smirked and held a thumb up. She smiled

"That was good you can come out now." She got up and put the headphones back on the microphone and came out.

She sat beside me as I played it back. She started smiling as she heard herself. She has a really nice voice.

I started playing with some sound FX. I showed her to buttons that she needed to used. I got up and walked into the booth. I felt like it was time for me to speak about how I feel.

The music plays and I hear Alexus part. I go in the second time her part comes in.

I know you so well, so well
I mean, I can do anything that he can
I've been feelin pain

I know you're somewhere, somewhere
I've been trapped in my mind girl, just holding on
I don't wanna pretend there's something, we're nothing
I've been stuck thinking 'bout her, I can't hold back

I'm in pain, wanna put ten shots in my brain
I've been tripping 'bout some things, can't change
Suicidal, same time I'm tame
Picture this, in bed, get a phone call
Girl that you fucked with killed herself
That was this summer and nobody helped
And ever since then, man, I hate myself
Wanna fucking end it
Pessimistic
All wanna see me with no pot to piss in
But niggas been excited 'bout the grave I'm digging
Having conversations about my haste decisions
Fucking sickening
At the same time, memory surfaced through the grapevine
'Bout my uncle playing with a slipknot
Post traumatic stress got me fucked up
Been fucked up since a couple months they had a nigga locked up

I sat there for a minute and wrote the outro. I stared at the paper thinking about how this is my final goodbye to her.

I walked out the booth and handed Alexus what I wrote and she went in and sung it. I came in and sung over it. In a way I feel lighter. Alexus was always insecure about her singing voice but she is really owning it right now.