trouvaille
/tro͞oˈvī/
noun
something lovely discovered by chance
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ag reid was doing perfect. she was in her sophomore year of college, she's had a a girlfriend for almost seven months, she has amazing friends. she's liv...
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ANNAGRACE REID
it's been a couple of days since the party. since then, me and billie haven't been talking as much. we've both been keeping our distance.
the morning after the party, i had woken up to find that billie had left. she had left a note on my nightstand saying that she had to go somewhere, though she didn't specify where.
since the party, i've had a lot of time to think about everything.
i seriously wish that estelle wouldn't have kissed me. it's like the kiss just reset all of the progress i had made to getting over her. i was almost there too; i was so close.
i also hate the fact that they took advantage of me being drunk like that. it hurt to know that they would do that, knowing damn good and well that i wouldn't even think to take advantage of her or anybody else while they're drunk.
then there's also everything that happened with billie.
i've figured out that i most definitely like her. there's no use in trying to deny that at this point.
but i'm not ready for another relationship. not yet.
i don't even know how billie feels about me. does she like me back? does she want a relationship with me?
after i had told billie that i had kissed estelle, there was such a look of sadness on her face that i honestly never want to see again. it hurt.
it's not like i just went out of my way to kiss estelle though; she came to me and she kissed me.
i let out a low groan, reaching up to run my hands down my face.
"i'm so confused, adrian," i confessed. "i don't know what to do."
he looked at me, giving me a look. "well, you said that you can't be with someone who disrespects the people in your life; estelle did that. so you might as well try and heal things with billie."
"yeah, but i don't even know what i want with billie," i sighed. "i'm not ready for a relationship yet. but i do like her. do i just stay in this friends with benefits type thing we have going on? do i try to take her out on a date or something and see where that goes? i don't know!" i threw my hands up.
"you just said that you're not ready for a relationship so taking her out on dates wouldn't be the best course of action. i know that if you try to date her right now, you're both just gonna end up hurt, and that's the last thing any of us want." he told me.
