Making It Up As We Go Along

Prologue: August 10, 2004

New York, NY.
Elizabeth's POV
I sit on the floor in the middle of my twin older sister's dorm room at NYU, my thoughts running around in my head.

Of course, I couldn't tell my parents about what was going on that had my thoughts so preoccupied at the moment. They were too busy worried about my twin sisters going off to college and having to move their multi-million dollar company from LA to NYC.

I didn't want to tell them what was going on anyways. I was going into my Sophomore year and I was 15. I couldn't let them know that their youngest child, the one who was supposed to follow up in the footsteps of the 90's it girls, was pregnant. I'm snapped out of my thoughts however when my mom speaks.

"Hey Lizzie I gotta go check into the hotel. Help your sisters unpack and stay with them until I get back, okay?" I nod. "Okay mom." I hugged her, putting my blonde hair against her side. She left, leaving me in the room while my sisters made their beds.

This wasn't how I imagined I would be feeling right now. I thought I was going to be sad, remembering all the fun times I've had with my sisters in the past fifteen years. However, after missing my period and remembering what had happened two Monday's ago with Josh, I was feeling sad but for the wrong reason. I had too much coming up, plus I was too young to be a mother. I was 15, turning 16 in February. This couldn't possibly be happening.

"Lizzie, dance with us!" My sister Ashley called out, pulling me up off of my feet. I laughed at her but did what she said. The twins blasted Toxic and Ashley twirled me around the room. "I'm gonna miss you Lizzie Liz." "I'll miss you too." I give her a soft smile and she hugs me.

"Well! I'm going to go get us lunch." Mary-Kate said, taking her keys. I waved goodbye to her as she closed the door and left Ashley and I alone. I finally build up the courage and decided to tell Ashley.

"Ashley, I can tell you anything right?" I ask, shifting my body towards her. "Yea. Anything you say is between you and me unless something's killing you. What's wrong sis?" I take a deep breath in.

"Well, two Monday's ago- at your going away party, I was hanging out with Josh- and afterwards we went to my room and one thing led to another. W-we didn't use protection sis, a-and I'm scared." Tears start to fall from my eyes and I feel Ashley's hand wipe them away. "Shh, sis it's okay. I'm going to go get you a test okay? Then we can go from there. It'll be fine  sis. You'll be alright no matter what." I nod and hug her. Ashley gets up and leaves.

Less than 5 minutes later, Ashley returns with a box full of tests. I grab one and go to the restroom. "Okay Ash. I-I set the timer." She nods and hugs me. "It's okay sis. Hey, how about we cuddle till the timer goes off?" I nod and hug onto her, laying on her bed in the dorm. The timer goes off and I let Ashley go get the rest and bring it to me. I close my eyes as my sister slips the test into my hands. I open them to see my worst fear is correct. It's positive.

Over the next few months, my parents find out and I have to adapt my life to being pregnant. It was hard, mostly having to deal with my morning sickness. I decided to give my child up for adoption and one day during Spring break while I was in Ohio, I went into labor.

"Come on Elizabeth! You gotta do this." The nurse yelled at me, encouraging me to push. "N-no! It hurts too much." I cry. The woman keeps yelling at me and I end up pushing. Finally I hear from the doctor that it's a healthy baby girl, who I never hear from again.