Making It Up As We Go Along

17. Little Talks

Elizabeth's POV
As soon as Nellie goes to sleep, Kat and I sit there as Robbie and Andrew watch a baseball game.

"So, Lizzie, I have a question." Kat announces turning  towards me. "Yea? What's up." She takes a deep breath in and looks at me.

"I don't know if this is too personal or not, but, earlier you said she was a mini you, what's that about." I look at my hands, not knowing how Kat would respond to what I was about to say.

"Kat, when I was 15 I got pregnant. Then, I had the child at 16 and gave her up for adoption. I found out, after Robbie and I had decided to adopt Nellie, that she's my daughter. So, yeah. She's a mini me."

I watch Kat, seeing what she would say. I got scared, as it was taking a while for her to form a response. However, she came over and hugged me.

"Why haven't you told anyone before?" Kat asks. "I-I didn't want to tell anyone. I felt like no one would like me then, I guess. Before the other day, only my family knew about it. I'm sorry Kat, I just have never been that open about it." She nods.

"I understand. Thank you for telling me Elizabeth." I nod. I hug her. Once Robbie and Andrew finish their game, I take Robbie by the arm.

"Well, we are going to bed. It was nice to meet you guys." Robbie said. I smiled and hugged Kat goodnight.

Robbie and I laid down in the bed and I turned off the light.

"Night Lizzie." "Night Robbie."

** Dream **
I sit on Ashley's bed, I'm back in the dorm room at NYU. Ashley holds my hand and smiles at me while looking both at my mom.

"Elizabeth, what are you going to do with your life now? You have a child! You can't become an actress any more Elizabeth. Now, your sisters are going to loose business! This is just great."

I feel the same red hot tears pour down my face as they did before.  "I-I'm going to put the child up for adoption."

"Good, you better."

The dorm room morphs into my couch back in LA and this time it's Nellie and I.

"Nellie, I bought you House of M. I hope you like it, it's even signed by Paul and I." I smiled at her and she jumped into my arms.

"Thank you mom! Now, what did you want to talk about?" I opened my mouth to say something but a second later she slapped me across the face.

"NO! Elizabeth you did not do that! You ruined my life! Now get out of my life again, like you always were."

** Dream Over **
I start sobbing and immediately wake up crying.

"Hey, shh Lizzie, what's wrong? You had a nightmare babe. It's okay." Robbie rubs my shoulder and I cry into him.

"Sh-she hates me. T-they all do. They all want me out of their lives!" I cry into him, my tears staining his bare chest. "Shh Lizzie. No one hates you, it's okay. Don't worry about it Lizzie. Nellie loves you."

I stay glued to Robbie for a little bit as he wipes my tears away. 

"You're okay now Lizzie. I've got you, and you're okay. Nellie won't hate you. I don't hate you. You are going to be an amazing mother. I know that." He plants a kiss on my head. "I think you should tell Nellie soon though. It's better that she should know."

"Know what?" I hear Nellie's voice say. I jump.

"N-Nellie, what are you doing up at 3 am?" I stutter out. "I-I heard you scream mom. I was scared so I came to check on you." Robbie tells her that I just had a nightmare and that I was okay.

"N-Nellie. I-I need to tell you something. Please don't hate me..."