"It was absolutely nothing. I had no ties. No bittersweet memories. I was leaving nothing behind. Never experienced companionship, never been in love. And in that moment, all I felt was loneliness and regret."
But there's always a first time..
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I looked at Merlin and Egssy sitting in front of us and Harry took a sip of beer ''So?'' Egssy spoke impatiently, I smiled at Harry and again looked at both ''We set the date!'' I said excitedly, Egssy touched his chest and held out a hand to hold mine on the table ''What great news!'' Merlin smiled at us ''Finally...'' Egssy chuckled and looked like an excited child ''And when will it be?'' Egssy asked , I looked at Harry who was staring at me fondly. I couldn't be more grateful to the man who gave me a third chance at life, I wouldn't disappoint him again, and I'm slightly sure that he actually knows everything that happened in my past but hide this information from me.
''In a month, September 10th.'' I smiled looking at Harry who held my hand on the table ''I found a way to make him celebrate that date.'' I giggled referring to his birthday that would be on the same day ''I liked the idea, so I will never celebrate my birthday again, just anniversary, making me stop at 49. '' Harry looked at me with the most beautiful smile in the world, I pushed his shoulder ''Yeah... I'm thinking of doing that too.'' Merlin said taking a sip of beer, so he have someone, I looked at him scared ''Merlin...'' I spoke without being able to finish the sentence ''Who is she?'' I spoke quickly ''Someone... 27 years old.'' he smiled with a playful look "My God.." Harry said laughing, I laughed without believing what I was hearing it.
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The Big Day
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''Look at me.'' Merlin said holding my face ''Breath.'' I closed my eyes controlling my breathing ''You look beautiful, there's no need to worry.'' He hugs me tightly, I look at myself in the car's window and stared at the white dress ''I need Harry, I don't know if I can do it.'' my nervousness of entering the church in front of everyone, wearing a white dress and having everyone look at me from work, we sent out about 100 invitations and I already thought about it being a lot.
''Harry will be there.'' Merlin took my arm, I nodded and looked at the friendly church that was waiting for me, the doors were closed and everyone should be inside waiting for me, I could hear everyone's voice ''Ready?'' Merlin positioned us in front of the door. We agreed to get married in the simplest way possible, I hated big events and so did Harry, but we wanted a party for everyone who was with us on this crazy boat called life. Just like our house, I decorated the church with Harry, spreading the whole place with white roses, choosing dishes, cutlery, tables, let's say it was the most intense month of our entire lives. I fell in love with him every day, seeing him so committed to turning this day into reality, as if he had dreamed it all his life and it was finally happening.
