"It was absolutely nothing. I had no ties. No bittersweet memories. I was leaving nothing behind. Never experienced companionship, never been in love. And in that moment, all I felt was loneliness and regret."
But there's always a first time..
CHAPTER 8 1 YEAR AFTER THE ENGAGEMENT ______________________________________________________
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When I woke up Harry was not beside me on the bed, I looked around and got up "Harry?" I said leaving the room but nothing, his keys were not hanging beside the door as he normally did. I sighed and walked over to the balcony, seeing that he was at his house, but why? I sighed and went back to the living room sitting on the couch, I can't live like this anymore. I spent the whole day without talking to Harry, hoping that he would come here or that he would call me the least, who knows after 1 year of relationship everything really changes... No marriage, no plans together, nothing, not even plans to live together definitively, an engagement that looks more like two friends who have sex and sleep together. Late in the afternoon I received a message from Harry on the phone, I laughed sarcastically when I read it.
Dinner today? Harry
I couldn't take it anymore acting like It was still the first week of dating, and as much as I tried to make it all serious, Harry always found a way around the situation. I already wanted to be married... I wanted to be setting up our house, having dinner every night besides fast food and having lunch with him, lately he has been eating with Arthur every day. I poured a glass of wine feeling a tear roll down my cheek, I loved him so much but it was so difficult.
No, I need some time.
I sent a message back, but I didn't get an answer, otherwise there was a knock on the door 10 minutes later, so I got up from the couch and opened the door "Is everything alright?" Harry said coming in "Yes." I sat down on the sofa "I can't take you anymore saying yes, when I know you're not doing well!" he sighed and walked to the center of the room "Oh you can't take me anymore? You don't see anything, even if it is under your nose.'' I rolled my eyes ''What's the reason for that?'' he asked frowning ''You only think about yourself, it's unbelievable!'' I said standing up ''You're irrational!'' he said putting his hands on his waist ''One more day that I am completely alone, without receiving a reason!'' I dropped my wine glass on the living room table ''You know very well that I am working!'' he defended himself, now raising his voice towards me ''Oh yeah? In the begging there was loving messages, calls, you worked from here or invite me to stay there with you!'' I said hurt, feeling my heart ache in my chest ''You are being very immature...'' he said walking to the front door ''Immature? Why? Because am I not 50 years old to understand when someone is acting like a DICKHEAD!'' I said angrily following him, the fights had become routine now and I couldn't take it anymore ''When you calm down, call me so we can talk.'' he said without looking at me, I could see that he was really angry "I'm tired of being insulted!" he opened the door fast "I can't have a bloody conversation with you! Ever!" I said holding his arm before he left the door "It is not possible to have one with you!'' he said looking at me ''Why?'' I said without understanding, since I was always open to talk to him ''Because you are a child!'' What he said really hurted my feelings, I pushed hard his chest making him go out the door as shouted in his direction "Go fuck youself, Harry!" I felt the cry start to form in my eyes and I slammed the door, now I was too young.
