"It was absolutely nothing. I had no ties. No bittersweet memories. I was leaving nothing behind. Never experienced companionship, never been in love. And in that moment, all I felt was loneliness and regret."
But there's always a first time..
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''Can I come in?'' Harry finally spoke, I gave him space and he came in looking around ''Harry! ' Egssy smiled and came towards us, they were still the same, knowing that I hadn't gotten heart broken, at least I never appeared to be close to him, they maintained their normal friendship, and it was time for us all to go back to what we were before. We spent an incredible night, drank more than we could, ate more than we could handle and again ended the night me, Harry, Egssy and Merlin, sitting on the sofa in front of a shattered blue cake and all the party mess.
Merlin sang in front of everyone on the couch a very out of tune American Country song, Hank Williams, we laughed non-stop at his scene holding the beer as a microphone. "This is the best birthday I've ever had!" Eggsy said excited, I hugged him cheerfully. We sat at the dinner table after Merlin ended the show and Egssy found a board game from when he was a child, WAR, of course I knew the game the moment I saw it and I laughed because I knew Harry and Merlin were going to be dramatic about it. Egssy explained the rules for the two of them, who did not take long to understand the game, I poured another glass of beer for each one o fus and sat in front of Harry and next to Egssy, Merlin made the first move, already taking it too seriously, as he normally did with games.
In the fourth round, I felt that Harry was looking at me and I was not mistaken, I drank the rest of my beer and watched his face looking at me, with such affection that I could feel his arms around me, we kept exchanging looks throughout game, in the end he had an inviting expression, his lips asked for a kiss and every time he smiled during the game or spent a few seconds thinking, I realized that I really was still in love with him, a feeling that I didn't I know if I would be able to get rid of, he touched something in me, and just remembering what he made me feel months ago, I wondered how far he could go, I knew I hadn't even tried his best. I moved in the chair remembering the scene of him kneeling in front of me, with such desire ''Your turn!'' Egssy hit my knee, I looked up and realized that I had lost myself in thoughts ''Sorry, I'm sleepy. '' I lied, I looked at the board again and planned my next move, I saw Harry looking at me with a small smile on the corner of his lips and I wanted to hit him in the face.
''Enough, you two, kiss already!'' Merlin ordered, I looked scared at him and we were silent for a few seconds, Harry bit his lip to hide his smile and Egssy had a playful look to me ''I think it's time to go.'' I got up, that kind of joke with my feelings was not so funny anymore ''I'm going too, I'm too tired!'' Harry followed me ''Oh I can't believe it! Merlin!'' Egssy said annoyed ''Sleep here, please!'' Egssy begged holding my hand, I nodded without wanting to leave my friend alone on his birthday ''I accept, here.'' Merlin stood up and walked straight to the couch, lying down all the way, I giggled at the scene ''Bye, Egssy.'' Harry smiled at Egssy ''There was no room for you anyway.'' He joked and shrugged before hugging Harry thanking him for coming.
''You can't joke about it anymore!'' I said looking at Egssy and Merlin after Harry closed the door ''I didn't say anything!'' Egssy defended himself, Merlin grunted before speaking ''I'm tired of him, stay together already.'' He still spoke with his eyes closed ''Merlin, you know very well that we can't!'' I said, gathering the glasses on the table ''He signed the contract...'' Merlin spoke softly, I looked at Eggsy dropping the glasses on the table again, who looked at me with his mouth opened not beliving ''Harry!'' Egssy shouted and ran to the door ''My God you are too drunk! Please!'' I said walking behind and pulling him out of the door ''This is the moment!'' He spoke excitedly, already rolling his tongue because of the alcohol ''Egssy! No!'' I said seriously and saw Harry coming in ''Did you call me?'' He said worriedly ''No!'' I said, Egssy rolled up a laugh and walked back to the couch.
I looked at Harry and sighed at the situation, he looked at me without understanding what had happened, I smiled thinking that if he had signed, that meant that he really intended to explore something between us, but it was not the place or time for talk about it ''Go rest.'' He spoke softly and smiled ''You too, grandpa.'' I giggled, he approached me to kiss me on the cheek without hesitating to leave me a message by my earlobe ''A grandpa wouldn't have made you moan as loud as you did...'' he blinked and kept his serious expression before closing the door behind him, leaving again.
